https://natalietischler.info Natalie Tischler Tue, 30 Jun 2026 19:10:00 +0000 https://natalietischler.info en https://natalietischler.info/Home Mon, 24 Jul 2023 14:04:47 +0000 Natalie Tischler https://natalietischler.info/Home https://natalietischler.info/JUN26 Tue, 30 Jun 2026 19:10:00 +0000 Natalie Tischler https://natalietischler.info/JUN26 JUNE 2026 HIS MIND IS DISTRACTED, HIS FEELINGS ARE OVERTAKEN—HE IS SPLIT BETWEEN TWO SIDES OF HIMSELF, SPLIT IN TWO; THE SIDE THAT HOLDS ONTO HIMSELF AND HIS MISERY, AND THE SIDE THAT IS GIVEN UP, THAT IS IN THE WORLD. THE THINKING SELF VERSUS THE FEELING SELF. THE THINKING SELF, THE THINKING MAN, IS ALMOST ALWAYS THE MAN IN DESPAIR, THE MAN OF SELF-LOATHING, THE MAN WHO HAS BOTH AN UNDERLYING, PERSISTENT DEATH WISH AND A PERSISTENT FEAR OF DEATH. DEATH, IN THE BIOLOGICAL SENSE, AND THE DEATH OF HIMSELF—A DEATH OF THE SELF HE HAS COME TO KNOW AND DEFINE HIMSELF AS. THE MAN IN THOUGHT IS SO CONCERNED WITH HIS CONCEPT OF SELF, WITH DEFINING, REDEFINING, KNOWING HIMSELF, THAT HE FORGETS TO BE HIMSELF. HIS THOUGHTS LIMIT HIS REALITY TO WORDS, AND HIS LIFE BECOMES A CONSTANT AND EVER-INCREASINGLY FRUSTRATING BATTLE TO UNDERSTAND, TO KNOW. HE IS OBSESSED WITH KNOWING AND IN THAT, CONTROLLING. THE THINKING MAN HAS A NEED TO DEFINE, TO LABEL, TO SORT; TO MAKE SENSE OF HIMSELF, OF THE WORLD, OF HIMSELF IN THE WORLD. THE INTERIOR WORLD SPEAKS LOUDER THAN THE EXTERIOR WORLD FOR THE THINKING MAN, HIS INNER REALITY MORE REAL THAN EXTERNAL REALITY. I THINK, THEREFORE I AM; I THINK WHAT I BELIEVE, THEREFORE I BELIEVE WHAT I THINK. I AM A CLOSED LOOP OF THOUGHT. THE CLOSED CYCLE LEAVES NO ROOM FOR WHAT LIES OUTSIDE OF THE “I.” I AM NOT WHAT YOU THINK; YOU DO NOT THINK ME INTO EXISTENCE.&nbsp; HOWEVER; WHAT I THINK AND WHAT I AM, LINKED AS DEPENDENT CLAUSES, IS AFFECTED BY WHAT YOU THINK AND WHAT YOU ARE. MAN DOES NOT EXIST IN AN ISOLATED ECHO CHAMBER OF HIMSELF, OF THE “I,” AS MUCH AS HE MAY THINK HIMSELF INTO ONE. WHEN THE CYCLE OF “I” IS INTERRUPTED, MAN IS CONFRONTED WITH HIMSELF. HE BECOMES A REACTIONARY “I” RATHER THAN A SELF-AFFIRMING “I.” HIS SENSE OF SELF, HIS CONCEPT OF “I,” IS CHALLENGED. MAN IS ABLE TO MAINTAIN AND UPHOLD A CONSISTENT SENSE OF IDENTITY AS LONG AS HE IS NOT CONFRONTED WITH THE OTHER. THIS IDENTIFIED SELF IS SEEN AS STABLE BECAUSE IT IS SEEN AS RESILIENT. BUT A MAN WHO DOES NOT CHANGE PUTS ALL OF HIS ENERGY INTO PRESERVING AND HOLDING ONTO WHAT HE KNOWS TO BE HIMSELF; HE DOES NOT LEARN, HE DOES NOT GROW, HE DOES NOT ALLOW HIMSELF TO BE IMPACTED, AFFECTED, CHANGED. HE DOES NOT EVOLVE. WHAT IN NATURE DOES NOT CHANGE AND EVOLVE OVER TIME? IN MAN’S RESISTANCE TO THE EXTERNAL, IN HIS STEADFAST STRENGTH AND GOAL OF HOLDING ONTO HIMSELF, HE DEFIES HIS OWN NATURE. WHAT A PARADOX! HE THINKS HE IS GREATER THAN OTHER MEN, THEN MAN HIMSELF, BECAUSE OF HIS SELF-WILL. HIS OWN IDEA OF HIS NATURE TAKES ALL PRECEDENCE AND GUIDANCE OVER WHAT NATURE HAS GIVEN HIM. HAS BIRTHED OF HIM. INSTEAD, THE THINKING MAN SPENDS HIS TIME, HIS LIFE. UPHOLDING HIS INDIVIDUAL SELF AND PUTTING IT ABOVE ALL OTHER MEN. WHAT SELFISHNESS! HOW ISOLATED AND LONELY THE THINKING MAN IS! HOW HE PITS HIMSELF AGAINST OTHERS, AGAINST THE WORLD … WHAT IS THE THINKING MAN SO AFRAID OF? BEING! THE THINKING MAN IS AFRAID OF BEING. AFRAID OF LIVING. HE IS SO FEARFUL OF HIS OWN NATURE THAT HE CONSTRUCTS HIMSELF A SMALL DEFINITION OF A BOX AND LIVES IN IT, OUTSIDE OF THE TEMPTATIONS OF NATURE. OUTSIDE IS WHERE HE KEEPS WHAT HE IS NOT. IF I KEEP WHAT I AM NOT AT A DISTANCE, I WILL NOT BE EXPOSED TO WHAT I AM NOT; I AM AT LESSER RISK OF BECOMING WHAT I AM NOT. THE THINKING MAN IS AFRAID OF WHAT HE HAS DEFINED AS “NOT-I” BECAUSE HE IS AFRAID OF BECOMING IT AND LOSING HIS SELF-WILLED CONCEPT OF “I.” IF I AM NOT I, THEN WHAT AM I? TO THE THINKING MAN, THE ANSWER IS NOTHING. I AM NOTHING. TO BE NOTHING IS THE THINKING MAN’S GREATEST FEAR. THE CONTRADICTORY NATURE OF THE THINKING MAN IS THAT HE SEPARATES HIMSELF SO DRASTICALLY FROM THIS GREAT FEAR THAT HE BECOMES IT. HE IS SO DEEPLY AFRAID OF BEING NOTHING, WHICH EQUATES TO A LIVING DEATH, THAT HE ISOLATES HIMSELF FROM EVERYTHING AND CONSEQUENTLY BECOMES NOTHING. DEATH IS ALSO HIS GREAT FEAR; HE LIVES IN A CONSTANT FEAR OF DEATH, OF BEING NOTHING, THAT MUCH OF HIS LIFE IS SPENT LOOKING BACKWARD ONTO HIMSELF FROM A FUTURE SELF ON THE BRINK OF DEATH. FROM HERE, HE JUDGES HIS PRESENT SELF WITH PITY, REGRET, REMORSE—HE LOOKS DOWN ON HIMSELF FROM ABOVE. THIS IS THE STATE IN WHICH THE THINKING MAN LIVES: ALWAYS LOOKING DOWN UPON HIMSELF, TELLING HIMSELF WHAT HE IS AND WHAT HE IS NOT. FROM ABOVE, I WILL ALWAYS BE SMALLER, LESS SIGNIFICANT, LESS MEANINGFUL TO THE WHOLE. THE THINKING MAN IS PRESCRIPTIVE. HE HAS A VERY CLEAR SET OF DEFINITIONS AND TERMS BY WHICH HE CAN SEE THE WORLD AND OTHERS BY. HE IS A SELF-FULFILLING PROPHECY. HE SEES WHAT HE WANTS TO SEE, AND MORE OFTEN THAN NOT HE WILL CHOOSE AGAINST HIMSELF. HE HAS DECIDED TO SEE OTHERS AS ENEMY, ANY ACTION AS AN AFFRONT TO HIMSELF, ANY MISFORTUNE AS DESERVED. THE THINKING MAN IS AGAINST HIMSELF AND AGAINST THE WORLD; HE SEPARATES THE TWO. HE DOES NOT SEE HIMSELF AS PART OF THE WORLD, BUT OUTSIDE OF IT. BEING AN OUTSIDER IS EASY FOR THE THINKING MAN. IT CREATES A DEFINITIVE “I AM” AND “I AM NOT,” AND EXCUSES HIM FROM THE CONDUCT OF THE WORLD, FROM WHAT HE IS NOT. THE THINKING MAN IS AN AUTONOMOUS FEEDBACK LOOP OF ISOLATION AND SELF-PITY. HE LETS NO ONE AND NOTHING IN. WHAT HE DOES NOT KNOW IS THAT IN THIS, HE KEEPS HIMSELF OUT. THE THINKING MAN DOES NOT LIVE IN THE WORLD. HE LIVES IN HIS OWN WORLD—AT LEAST TO HIMSELF. HE CREATES A WORLD FOR HE HIMSELF AND ONLY HIMSELF TO LIVE IN. HE IS CONFINED TO HIMSELF. HE IS HIS OWN WORST ENEMY. WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THE THINKING MAN IS CONFRONTED BY ANOTHER? USUALLY, HE REMAINS UNAFFECTED. HE DOES NOT SEE HIMSELF WORTHY OF OTHERS’ ATTENTION OR AFFECTION, SO HE REMAINS CLOSED OFF TO IT. EVERY SO OFTEN, HOWEVER, AND RARELY, THE THINKING MAN BECOMES AFFECTED BY THE EXTERNAL. HE FEELS SEEN, UNDERSTOOD, AND CARED FOR BY ANOTHER. HE FEELS! WHICH SHAKES HIS ENTIRE CONCEPT OF SELF AS THINKING MAN, NOT-FEELING MAN. WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THE THINKING MAN FEELS? IT CREATES A WAR WITHIN HIMSELF. A RIFT, A CONFLICT OF TWO SELVES WITHIN ONE SELF. HIS CONSTRUCTED “I” IS CONFRONTED WITH HIS NATURAL “I,” AND BOTH TRY TO EXIST AT ONCE. THE THINKING MAN FEELS, LOSES HIMSELF, FINDS HIMSELF LOST IN FEELING, AND IMMEDIATELY TRIES TO WILL HIS SELF BACK. I CAN THINK MYSELF OUT OF THIS! AND HE DOES—MAN RETURNS TO THE CAVE OF HIS OWN WORLD, THROUGH A COMBINATION OF SELF-PITY, SELF-DISCIPLINE, SELF-CONDEMNATION, AND A RETURN TO ISOLATION. THE THINKING MAN THEN FEELS A SENSE OF RELIEF FROM HIS EMOTIONAL DISTRESS. VICTORY! I’VE PULLED MYSELF OUT OF MY TEMPTATIONS YET AGAIN! BUT SLOWLY, THEN ALL AT ONCE, THE EXPOSURE MAN HAS HAD TO LIFE FLOODS BACK IN, AND THE THINKING MAN IS TORN, SEGMENTED, SPLIT YET AGAIN. HE IS CONFRONTED WITH WHAT HE IS NOT, BECAUSE HE DOES NOT WANT TO BE, AND THE INTERNAL CONFLICT IS AS STRONG, IF NOT STRONGER, THAN BEFORE. HE FINDS HIMSELF DOTING ON BEING LOST IN FEELING, IN GIVING HIMSELF UP TO THE WORLD AND THE OTHER. BUT NO! WHAT HAVE I WORKED SO HARD MY WHOLE LIFE TO PRESERVE? I WILL NOT GIVE MYSELF UP FOR THIS ONE MOMENT OF WEAKNESS! HE WILL RETURN TO HIMSELF&nbsp; STRONGER THAN EVER: MORE ISOLATED, MORE DISCIPLINED. THE CYCLE INTENSIFIES, REPEATS. MAN CAN NEVER TRULY ISOLATE HIMSELF AND ONLY HIMSELF TO HIS OWN THOUGHTS. HOW, WHEN DOES THE THINKING MAN BREAK THE CYCLE? HE MUST BE BROKEN, BROKEN AGAIN AND AGAIN. HE MUST BE BROKEN TO A POINT OF EXHAUSTION AT HIS OWN MISERY, HIS OWN PITY. ONLY WHEN I REACH THE POINT OF NOTHING AM I WILLING TO ASK FOR THE ONLY THING THERE IS LEFT TO ASK FOR: SOMETHING. HE TURNS TO GOD. HE TURNS TO OTHERS. HE SURRENDERS HIMSELF. HE SEES GLIMPSES OF HIS WEAK SELF AND SAYS, “I AM WEAK.” HE HOLDS ONTO HIMSELF LESS AND LESS; HE DOESN’T HAVE THE STRENGTH. IN THIS WEAKNESS, HE SEES GLIMPSES OF LIGHT. HE SEES OTHER WAYS OF BEING, OTHER SELVES TO BE. HE GIVES HIMSELF UP TO THE OTHER, TO THE WORLD. AND WHEN HE HAS THE COURAGE TO THINK AGAIN, HE IS SO AFRAID OF HIS OLD SELF THAT HE DOES ANYTHING IN HIS POWER TO NOT BE OR BECOME HIM AGAIN. THE THINKING MAN BECOMES ANOTHER. HE DOES NOT DEFINE OR CONTROL THIS SELF; HE GIVES HIMSELF UP. HE TRUSTS THE WORLD. HE TRUSTS HIMSELF, BECAUSE HE TRUSTS THE WORLD. HE SEES HIMSELF AS PART OF THE WORLD. HE SEES BEING AS GREATER THAN HIMSELF. HE IS AN EQUAL AMONG EQUALS, NOT ABOVE, NOR BELOW. THE THINKING MAN IS MAN AS THINKING IS THINKING. <img width="3539" height="10342" width_o="3539" height_o="10342" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/b9956456e29907d9ff950b0d1305e73630650917b7bcb1cbf2edf600e54869b8/1.jpg" data-mid="250005174" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/b9956456e29907d9ff950b0d1305e73630650917b7bcb1cbf2edf600e54869b8/1.jpg" /><img width="744" height="690" width_o="744" height_o="690" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" data-mid="250005175" border="0" data-scale="20" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/744/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" /> <img width="744" height="690" width_o="744" height_o="690" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" data-mid="250005175" border="0" data-scale="38" 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data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" data-mid="250005175" border="0" data-scale="65" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/744/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" /><img width="744" height="690" width_o="744" height_o="690" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" data-mid="250005175" border="0" data-scale="65" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/744/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" /><img width="744" height="690" width_o="744" height_o="690" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" data-mid="250005175" border="0" data-scale="20" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/744/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" /> <img width="744" height="690" width_o="744" height_o="690" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" data-mid="250005175" border="0" data-scale="26" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/744/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" /><img width="744" height="690" width_o="744" height_o="690" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" data-mid="250005175" border="0" data-scale="38" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/744/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" /><img width="744" height="690" width_o="744" height_o="690" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" data-mid="250005175" border="0" data-scale="26" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/744/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" /> <img width="6238" height="9482" width_o="6238" height_o="9482" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/701d63bc30c9323c310b4069ff89677c5b3a0c6de942322d829ec4db73a0cd0d/MAP-OF-THE-uNnOun.jpg" data-mid="249945420" border="0" data-scale="76" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/701d63bc30c9323c310b4069ff89677c5b3a0c6de942322d829ec4db73a0cd0d/MAP-OF-THE-uNnOun.jpg" /> LANGUAGE IS THE ULTIMATE PARADOX. IN LANGUAGE, WE SEEK TO UNDERSTAND AS AN INDIVIDUAL AND UNDERSTAND COLLECTIVELY. LANGUAGE USED BY ONE IS AN ABSTRACTION—THE WORD IS A SUBSTITUTE FOR THE THING. LANGUAGE USED BY A COLLECTIVE IS AN ABSTRACTION OF THIS ABSTRACTION, ANY COMMUNICATION BETWEEN INDIVIDUALS A DOUBLE ABSTRACTION. THE WORD IS AN INTERPRETATION OF THE THING; THE WORD COMMUNICATED IS AN ABSTRACTION OF THE WORD. THE WORD MEANS ONE THING TO ME AND ANOTHER TO YOU. WORD IS ATTACHED TO MEANING AND FEELING; MY WORD FEELS DIFFERENTLY THAN YOUR WORD. OUR WORDS ARE AN INTERPRETATION. WE INTERPRET DIFFERENTLY. WHAT DOES IT MEAN WHEN WE CEASE TO VALUE THE WORD? HOW ISOLATING IS LANGUAGE, AND HOW MUCH DOES IT BRING US TOGETHER? LANGUAGE IS AS MEANINGFUL AS TRUTH; LANGUAGE IS AS COMPROMISING AS TRUTH. WHEN I SAY “HELLO,” AND YOU HEAR ME SAY “HELLO,” THERE IS MORE BEHIND THE WORD FOR BOTH OF US. [THE SAME WORD HOLDS DIFFERENT MEANINGS FOR THE BOTH OF US]. HOW DO WE DECONSTRUCT, STRIP THINGS OF MEANING, TO GET TO THE ESSENCE OF THE THING? HOW DO WE LET THINGS SPEAK FOR THEMSELVES? THOSE THINGS THAT CANNOT SPEAK? LANGUAGE TAKES AWAY FROM THE ESSENCE OF THE THING, THE THING THAT IS NOT TIED TO LANGUAGE (LANGUAGE IS NOT TIED TO THE THING). WE PRESCRIBE LANGUAGE TO THE THING AND, IN THAT, PRESCRIBE MEANING. LANGUAGE IS A QUALIFICATION. LANGUAGE IS A MEANS OF SEARCHING FOR UNDERSTANDING; LANGUAGE IS THE MEANS BY WHICH WE DO NOT FIND IT. WHAT DOES IT MEAN WHEN WE CEASE TO UNDERSTAND THE WORLD? WHEN WE CEASE TO PUT OUR MEANING, INTERPRETATION, VALUE, UNDERSTANDING ONTO THINGS—WHEN WE CEASE TO USE LANGUAGE—AND WE ALLOW UNDERSTANDING TO COME TO US? WE HAVE SURPASSED UNDERSTANDING, UNDERSTANDING TOO MUCH, EVERYTHING IS TOO CODED WITH MEANING, NOTHING IS PURE. WHEN WE CEASE TO UNDERSTAND THE WORLD, WE BEGIN TO EXPERIENCE IT. WE COME TO OUR OWN UNDERSTANDING; WE COME TO UNDERSTAND OURSELVES AND IN THAT, UNDERSTAND THE WORLD. WE ALLOW THE WORLD TO COME TO US RATHER THAN PUTTING OURSELVES UNTO THE WORLD. <img width="744" height="690" width_o="744" height_o="690" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" data-mid="250005175" border="0" data-scale="26" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/744/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" /><img width="744" height="690" width_o="744" height_o="690" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" data-mid="250005175" border="0" data-scale="38" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/744/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" /><img width="744" height="690" width_o="744" height_o="690" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/473606dbb395f411c438a3b58daf5ad8eb6ff42523e80c9372b61b7c55769dc2/2.jpg" data-mid="250005175" border="0" data-scale="26" 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OFTEN THERE ISN’T SO MUCH TO SHOW. I SEE THINGS, I LOOK AT THINGS. I TAKE PHOTOS, REFERENCE. I WRITE THINGS, SKETCH THINGS. LATER, I GO BACK AND ARRANGE THINGS, COMPOSE THINGS. MAKE A COMPOSITION. AFTER I’VE LIVED IT. I GIVE THINGS A NEW LIFE. SEEING THROUGHLINES AMONG THINGS, PATTERNS. WAYS OF THINKING, WAYS OF SEEING. WORDS AND IMAGES. MY FIRST BOOK IS A BOOK OF WORDS. MY NEXT BOOK WILL BE A BOOK OF IMAGES. AFTER THAT I THINK IT WILL BE BOTH, A MIX. WORDS AND IMAGES. HOW WE EXIST. HOW WE SEE AND UNDERSTAND THINGS. HOW WE MAKE MEANING—HOW MEANING IS MADE FOR, AND UNTO US. HOW WE SEE AND THINK INDIVIDUALLY, COLLECTIVELY. I JUST THINK IT’S FASCINATING TO BE A PERSON. IN A BRAIN. I THINK IT’S FASCINATING TO BE ALIVE! I WATCH MYSELF, FOLLOW MYSELF, LISTEN TO MYSELF, AND THINGS HAPPEN. LIFE HAPPENS; I HAPPEN. IT’S WHEN I GIVE MYSELF UP THAT I FEEL MOST MYSELF—TO FEELING, TO INSTINCT. THIS SCARED ME MOST OF MY LIFE. IT SCARED ME TO ACT ON IMPULSE, TO TRUST MYSELF, TO TRUST THE WORLD. MAYBE THAT’S WHY I FIND IT SO FASCINATING NOW, SO NOVEL. LIVING IS NEW TO ME. I THINK IT WILL ALWAYS BE NEW TO ME. WHEN I WRITE, I GIVE MYSELF UP. I DON’T THINK—I JUST HAPPEN. WORDS HAPPEN. IF I QUESTION THEM TOO MUCH THEY DON’T COME, DON’T FEEL WELCOME, ARE UNINVITED. SAME WITH IMPULSE. IF I SUPPRESS MY IMPULSES, THEY DON’T FEEL SAFE AND THEY RETREAT, LIKELY TO APPEAR LESS AND LESS UNTIL THEY DISAPPEAR. THEN I MUST WELCOME THEM BACK, INVITE THEM IN WITH WARMTH AND A SAFE SPACE, A NON-JUDGEMENTAL SPACE. OPEN SPACE. FREE TO BE, TO THINK, TO FEEL. FREE SPACE. FREEDOM. THAT’S WHAT FREEDOM IS TO ME. FREEDOM FROM—EVERYTHING. AND THAT’S WHAT MAKING IS TO ME. FREEDOM IS A LACK OF FEAR. WHEN I FEEL THESE RARE MOMENTS (AND I REFUSE TO ACKNOWLEDGE IT WHILE IT HAPPENS, I ONLY LIVE IN IT), THE RARE PURE MOMENTS OF FREEDOM, I AM FREE OF FEAR, FULL OF TRUST. IN WHAT? IN THE UNKNOWN. I LIVE IN THE UNKNOWN AND I WATCH MY SELF HAPPEN—THAT IS FREEDOM. I GUESS MY WORK IS ABOUT FREEDOM. AND ITS OPPOSITE, FEAR. I AM OBSESSED WITH (I KNOW BY INSTINCT) GRIDS, BOXES, CAGES, LINES; TENSION, LIMITS, EXTREMES; CONTRAST, DUALITY. BECAUSE I FEEL THIS WITHIN MY SELF, AND ALSO OUTSIDE OF ME. I FEEL THE DISSONANCE, THE DUALITY, THE TENSION WITHIN MYSELF; I FEEL THE SAME TENSION BETWEEN THIS SELF AND ALL THAT IS NOT ME. BETWEEN MYSELF AS THE INTERNAL AND ALL THAT IS EXTERNAL, ALL THAT IS OTHER. MY PERCEPTION OF MYSELF, MY PERCEPTION OF THE OTHER—I AM ALSO OBSESSED WITH PERCEPTION. HOW WE SEE, HOW WE MAKE MEANING, WHAT IS TRUTH, HOW DO WE KNOW. HOW MEANING IS TIED TO PERCEPTION, HOW TO SKEW AND ALTER AND DISTORT THAT. THROUGH OBJECTS, THROUGH TIME—IN SUBTLE, SUBTLE CHANGES. I’M QUIET. I’M SUBTLE. I LIKE TO KEEP THINGS TO MYSELF. LIFE IS VERY FASCINATING TO ME AND LIKE A CHILD I WANT TO PROTECT THIS WONDER. I WANT TO LIVE IN THE AWE OF LIFE, AND TO DO SO, I FEEL I MUST BE PROTECTIVE OF IT. PROTECT THIS FRAGILE FLEETING FEELING THAT DRIVES MY DESIRE TO LIVE. TO PUT THIS FEELING INTO THE WORLD LIKE A SIGNAL, IN SILENT HOPES OF GETTING A RETURN. THAT, IS THE BEAUTY OF SHARING— THE SLIM CHANCE TO FEEL RESONANCE WITH ANOTHER. TO PERMEATE THE BOUNDARIES OF SELF AND OTHER, DIMINISH THE EDGES BETWEEN YOU AND I. TO FEEL LESS ALONE IN A WORLD SO INTERNAL. IN WORDS, IN IMAGES—THAT IS MY INTERNAL. THE SLIM CHANCE TO FEEL YOUR SELF IN ANOTHER. TO SEE YOUR INTERNAL IN ANOTHER’S INTERNAL, TO KNOW THIS INTERNAL IS NOT ALONE. ︎ TUESDAY MAY 5 HAVE YOU EVER WOKEN UP? ON THIS DAY, ON THIS VERY DAY YOU WAKE UP, NOT FROM A SLEEP THAT YOU KNOW BY THE NAME OF SLEEP, BUT BY A SLEEP YOU HAVE ONLY COME TO KNOW BECAUSE YOU HAVE AWOKEN FROM IT. AS THOUGH THE EYE HAS SEEN A NEW COLOR, THAT WITHOUT A NAME, THAT WITHOUT WORDS—THAT EXPERIENCE THAT CANNOT BE EXPLAINED EXCEPT BY EXPERIENCING. ON THIS DAY, YOU COME TO KNOW A NEW AWAKENING, BECAUSE YOU HAVE EXPERIENCED A NEW SLEEP. IT IS AS IF ALL THE WORLD HAS BEEN ASLEEP UNTIL THIS VERY NOW; NOW, ALL THE WORLD HAS BEEN AWAKENED. YOU HAVE NOT LOOKED FOR IT, NO, YOU HAVE NOT SUMMONED THE WORLD TO AWAKEN ALL AT ONCE, IN THIS VERY INSTANT, FOR YOU TO SEE THAT ALL YOU HAVE DONE UNTIL THIS VERY MOMENT HAS BEEN IN A SLUMBER. OR, THE WORLD HAS BEEN IN A SLUMBER, AND IS JUST NOW WAKING UP TO YOU. EITHER WAY, YES, EITHER WAY, SOMETHING HAS AWOKEN, EITHER YOU, OR THE WORLD. EVERYTHING IS ALIVE NOW. EVERYTHING HAS THAT QUALITY OF LIFE A THING HAS WHEN IT HAS JUST BEEN BORN, WHEN IT HAS JUST AWOKEN—FULL OF AWE, SATURATED WITH LIGHTNESS AND GOODNESS, DEVOID OF HARD LIFE. AND EVERYTHING IS FULL OF THIS LIGHTNESS—YOUR SELF, TOO, HAS JUST AWOKEN. NOTHING CARRIES A QUALITY OF DEFINITION. EVERYTHING IS FULL OF LIGHTNESS BECAUSE IT DOES NOT CARRY THE BURDEN OF A NAME. YES, EVERYTHING HAS JUST AWOKEN. EVERYTHING IS EXPERIENCING ITSELF FOR THE FIRST TIME—HOW SENSUAL! WATCH, IT IS ALL GETTING ACQUAINTED. IT SETTLES INTO ITS FORM AND THINKS, “AT LAST, I AM HOME!” I AM RIGHT WHERE I AM, YOU THINK, I AM RIGHT WHERE I NEED TO BE, AS IF IT WERE NEVER A QUESTION. AND WITH THIS BEING, THIS NEWFOUND SENSE OF BEING, YOU TAKE YOUR SELF INTO THE STREETS, BECOME AQUAINTED WITH YOU SELF AS YOU MEET THE PAVEMENT, THE SIDEWALK, THE SHOP WINDOWS. YOUR NEIGHBORS, TOO, YOU MEET, WITH A TIP OF YOUR HAT AND A BOW OF YOUR HEAD. THE PASSERBYS, YOU WONDER IF THEY SEE YOUR NEWNESS, IF IT IS LEAPING OUT OF YOU AND ONTO THEM, IF THEY RECOGNIZE THIS NEW QUALITY ABOUT YOU ALTHOUGH YOU’VE NEVER MET. “I MUST BE SHINING,” YOU THINK TO YOURSELF, “WITH ALL THIS LIGHTNESS!” AND WITHOUT RESOLVE, WITHOUT CARE OR FEAR, YOU CONTINUE ALONG AMONG STRANGER AND FRIEND, CARRYING WITH YOU ALWAYS A STRANGE AND LIGHTNESS OF BEING. ︎ <img width="5712" height="4284" width_o="5712" height_o="4284" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/1b60a49457561f83036b87400f32a9c69fb23c35f9ca2bc8d439cef1029e5dd7/IMG_5675.jpeg" data-mid="248700626" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/1b60a49457561f83036b87400f32a9c69fb23c35f9ca2bc8d439cef1029e5dd7/IMG_5675.jpeg" /><img width="4284" height="5712" width_o="4284" height_o="5712" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/9c9dc16587fdd8a9eb0dd8fade6e56dbb8ebfc5e0009508f418e59d87aff78a8/IMG_5133.jpeg" data-mid="248700844" border="0" 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Natalie Tischler https://natalietischler.info/APR26 APRIL 2026 <img width="3024" height="4032" width_o="3024" height_o="4032" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/ccd5fd4cbaf5a26b8ec89ce74d8913924c6e7d9376679af22a3895fddd3f4bd4/IMG_4585-2.jpeg" data-mid="248701000" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/ccd5fd4cbaf5a26b8ec89ce74d8913924c6e7d9376679af22a3895fddd3f4bd4/IMG_4585-2.jpeg" /><img width="3024" height="4032" width_o="3024" height_o="4032" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/2d0a833fa1d90c1c7a2a1c6baaa7e701cd77167b23f10de06ce94dee9b9af27f/IMG_4586.jpeg" data-mid="248701001" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/2d0a833fa1d90c1c7a2a1c6baaa7e701cd77167b23f10de06ce94dee9b9af27f/IMG_4586.jpeg" /><img width="5712" height="4284" width_o="5712" height_o="4284" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/eb879abfbad6e7bd847a6cffe235e778a8da037124aeb460d9a0e938cf3615b3/IMG_4590.jpeg" data-mid="248701004" border="0" 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data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/181d52cb054f8a8cdb209ffe4b804e65cb1ff4cdc7cc61709137121bf68edc36/IMG_4603.jpeg" data-mid="248701007" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/181d52cb054f8a8cdb209ffe4b804e65cb1ff4cdc7cc61709137121bf68edc36/IMG_4603.jpeg" /> <img width="5712" height="4284" width_o="5712" height_o="4284" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/ffcfa395561ba43e3a2c87497cd8ef354723d330e4d8ac8d70a2e1321d51a960/IMG_4409.jpeg" data-mid="248701209" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/ffcfa395561ba43e3a2c87497cd8ef354723d330e4d8ac8d70a2e1321d51a960/IMG_4409.jpeg" /> ︎ TUESDAY APRIL 21 ~815P - WEEK 12 DAY 1 I LIKE TO TAKE A VERY HOT BATH. WHEN I FEEL SATISFIED ENOUGH IN MY BATH TO DRAIN IT, I RELEASE THE PLUG AND SIT UNTIL THE WATER SUBSIDES. ABOUT HALFWAY DOWN I TURN MY SELF OVER INTO CHILD’S POSE. HEAD DOWN OR, IF THE WATER IS STILL HIGH, HELD IN MY HANDS ON PROPPED ELBOWS. CROUCHING. I STRETCH THE OTHER HALF OF MY BODY, NOT THE SIDE THAT FACES UP IN THE BATH BUT THE SIDE THAT TOUCHES THE PORCELAIN. WHAT A DELICATE WORD. A DELICATE MATERIAL, SO CREAMY AND WHITE, I, DECEIVED, AFTER I LAY MY BACK AGAINST ITS BOWL; ALAS. NOW I MUST STRETCH. EMERGING FROM CHILD TO UPRIGHT ON KNEES. OR, ON FEET, RATHER, HANDS ON LAP OR LIMP AT MY SIDE. AS IF POSTURING TO TALK TO A CHILD, THE CHILD I WAS JUST BEFORE I ROSE. THE NECK NEEDS TO STRETCH, RELEASE, BECAUSE OF ITS PREVIOUS CONTACT WITH THE HARD SOFT PORCELAIN. ARCH FORWARD, ARCH DOWN. PALMS FACE UP ON TOPS OF THIGHS WHILE NECK LOWERS, BOWS, UNTIL I AM ASKING FOR FORGIVENESS WITH MY HEAD IN HANDS. AH, I SEE MY HANDS. THE BATH WILL SOON EMPTY, NO I DO NOT WANT HARD KNEES ON HARD PORCELAIN THAT DECEIVES ME WITH ITS SOFTNESS OF WORD, SOFTNESS OF LANGUAGE, SOFTER WHEN THE WATER EXISTS BETWEEN US, MY SELF AND ANYTHING ELSE. THE PALMS MEET THE GROUND AS SOFT PORCELAIN MEETS THE HANDS AND BODY IS RISEN. BODY IS SOFT IS COVERED IN SOFT WATER AS IT RISES AND THE BODY HAS RISEN. THE BODY KEEPS RISING, FOLDING UP AND ONTO ITSELF, UNTIL IT IS UPRIGHT, UNTIL COVERED BY SOFT WATER, MORE AND MORE WATER COVERS ITS SOFTNESS UNTIL AGAIN, IT IS SUBMERGED. A BODY OF WATER. A BODY EMERGES: DRY, WET, COLD. I EMERGE. I HAVE RISEN; FREE FROM WATER, FROM PORCELAIN, FROM MY OWN EMBRACE. I SIT DOWN ON THE RIM AND ITS SUDDEN COLDNESS AWAKENS ME. AH YES, THIS IS WHY I LIKE TO EXIST IN EXTREMES. LIKE SEX. LIKE DANCING. LIKE HOLDING MY BREATH A LITTLE LONGER. LIKE RUNNING, LIKE SWIMMING. GOODBYE, OXYGEN. GOODNIGHT, SELF. I WRITE IN CANDLELIGHT NOW. THERE ARE NO BLOCKS TO MY DAYS, NO DEFINITION TO MYSELF. FROM THE DIM CUP, I TASTE FOR THE FIRST TIME. I TASTE WHAT LIFE COULD BE. I TASTE A NEW LIFE. I LEFT MY SELF IN THE BATH. NOW YOU ARE TALKING TO ME AND I AM TALKING TO NO ONE. THERE ARE NO RULES HERE. I COULD WRITE AND WRITE AND NEVER STOP WRITING. IT WOULD BE A BOOK, OR IT WOULDN’T. I AM SITTING IN A ROOM AT A DESK, WHICH IS AT THE FAR END OF THE ROOM. NO, IT’S IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROOM, PEOPLE CAN SEE ME AT ALL ANGLES, AND AT ALL DEGREES I HAVE THOUGHTS REFLECTING BACK ON ME. I AM SITTING IN THIS ROOM AND WRITING, I REFUSE TO STOP FOR 24 HOURS. I REFUSE TO PUT MY PEN DOWN OR LET THE WORDS STOP FLOWING. WHAT AM I WRITING AT HOUR THREE? HOUR EIGHTEEN? LET’S SAY, IN ONE HOUR, I CAN AVERAGE SOMEWHERE FROM FIVE TO SEVEN PAGES. WHAT IS 24 TIMES FIVE? OK, IN 24 HOURS I WILL HAVE WRITTEN ABOUT ONE HUNDRED AND TWENTY TO ONE HUNDRED AND FIFTY PAGES, DEPENDING ON THE DENSITY OF MY HANDWRITING AND OF THOUGHTS. I WOULD FILL AN ENTIRE ONE OF THESE NOTEBOOKS. I WOULD NEVER REPEAT A THOUGHT ALREADY WRITTEN, JUST AS I HAVE BARELY REPEATED A THOUGHT IN THIS VERY NOTEBOOK. I’VE NEVER WRITTEN THIS THOUGHT IN THIS NOTEBOOK OR ANYWHERE ELSE BECAUSE I’VE NEVER THOUGHT THIS THOUGHT. HOW FUN IT IS TO HAVE NEW THOUGHTS, HAVE A NEW THOUGHT THEN RECOGNIZE IT AS NEW. I DO WORRY MY BACK WOULD HURT. MY BACK WILL NOT MAKE IT 24 HOURS SITTING. I CAN BARELY WRITE FOR FORTY FIVE MINUTES WITHOUT NEEDING TO GET UP AND STRETCH. THAT IS A CONSTRAINT. MY HAND AND WRIST WOULD PROBABLY HURT, TOO. AFTER HOUR ONE. HOW WOULD I WRITE WITHOUT MY HAND? HOW MANY PENS WOULD I FINISH? WHAT WOULD I WRITE ABOUT, AND WHAT WILL I DO WITH THE NOTEBOOK AFTER? I GOT TO THIS THOUGHT BECAUSE THE POINT OF THE BATH STORY WAS THAT I LIKE TO PUT MY BODY IN EXTREMES. IT WAS NOT A STORY ABOUT A SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE IN THE BATH BUT ABOUT BROWNING OUT AFTER THE HEAT AND BLOOD RUSH TO MY HEAD AFTER A HOT BATH AND THAT FEELING LIKE A SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE BECAUSE I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT MYSELF. I RETURN, AND I HAVE NO WORDS FOR MYSELF. I HAVE NO LANGUAGE. MAYBE LANGUAGE IS WHY I’M SO ATTACHED TO MYSELF. MAYBE WORDS TIE ME TO MYSELF, MY “I AM” AND “I AM NOT.” WELL, LISTEN. I LIKE TO HAVE FUN AND I’M LETTING MYSELF RIGHT NOW SO PLEASE LET ME BE. ︎ MONDAY APRIL 13, VARIOUS TIMES LONG SPONTANEOUS WALK TODAY. IT’S SUNNY. I THOUGHT I WAS TIRED. ONLY STOPPED TO SEE THE TWO NOGUCHI SITES AROUND HOUR TWO. OTHERWISE, NO AGENDA. LISTENED TO THE AUDIOBOOK OF CATCHING THE BIG FISH, READ BY LYNCH HIMSELF. 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height="5712" width_o="4284" height_o="5712" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/553185b2e01780ebd38597ec729d7559dbe67fc5ca1f9fd8c7a3f3c7b81b2824/IMG_4394.jpeg" data-mid="247157127" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/553185b2e01780ebd38597ec729d7559dbe67fc5ca1f9fd8c7a3f3c7b81b2824/IMG_4394.jpeg" /><img width="5712" height="4284" width_o="5712" height_o="4284" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/dd9db677cf6d7660cb7b36e0df739fcf2411adceed7d1996d0003bffe0820d4e/IMG_4397.jpeg" data-mid="247157129" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/dd9db677cf6d7660cb7b36e0df739fcf2411adceed7d1996d0003bffe0820d4e/IMG_4397.jpeg" /> SUBMERGE, EMERGE COS OR SIN GRAPH VIEWED AS IN ELEVATION WHAT IS REVEALED? CONCEALED? HIDDEN? WHAT ARE WE SHOWING AND WHAT IS FORBIDDEN? WHAT CHANGES OVER TIME? AND HOW DO WE KNOW? MARKS LEFT TO BE DISCOVEREDREVEALED TO US BY ANOTHER BE SUBTLE, BARELY VISIBLE A POOL HOLDING WATERA REFLECTION OF ANOTHER UNTOUCHABLE, UNREACHABLE[I LIKE YOU BETTER FROM AFAR]EMERGE THE UNSPEAKABLE I WANT MY WORDS TO BE MINEI WANT TO SAY THE UNSPEAKABLE ON THE SURFACE IN THE DEPTHSTHROUGH THE CRACKSYOU LINGER FROM ABOVE YOU SEE MEWITH EACH GLANCE GETTING STEEPER ︎ TUESDAY APRIL 7 804A - WEEK 10 DAY 1 NATALIE TISCHLER [IS A W] WHAT ARE THE FACTS OF MY LIFE? NATALIE TISCHLER WAS BORN IN RHINEBECK, NEW YORK, AND RAISED IN WEST HURLEY, NEW YORK. NATALIE TISCHLER WAS BORN AND RAISED IN WOODSTOCK, NY. [I’M CRAFTING MY LIFE, THINKING OF HOW THE WORDS WILL BE RECEIVED AND WHAT THEY WILL MEAN TO ANOTHER PERSON READING THEM] NATALIE TISCHLER WRITES EVERY DAY IN NEW YORK, NY. SHE SWIMS TO OCCUPY HER BODY WHILE SHE THINKS AND TO REGULATE HER BREATHING UNTIL SHE STOPS THINKING. SHE DANCES TO FORGET HOW TO THINK AND TO LET HER BODY BE A BODY. SHE WALKS TO DAYDREAM IN THE SURROUNDINGS; TO NOTICE PATTERNS, TO SEEK NOTHING, TO TAKE ANYTHING IN. SHE LIKES TO DRIVE AND TO SING IN THE CAR. SHE WANTS THE FREEDOM TO BE HUMAN AND TO NOT BE HERSELF, TO NOT BE ANYBODY. SHE WRITES TO MAKE SENSE OF LIVING, KNOWING SHE WILL NEVER COME TO A CONCLUSION, THAT ONE CONCLUSION IS NO MORE CO NATALIE TISCHLER IS SITTING IN THE SUN IN LOS ANGELES, CA. SHE DOES NOT WANT TO BE ANYTHING OTHER THAN WHAT SHE IS BEING RIGHT NOW. NATALIE TISCHLER IS NOW WRITING. BY THE TIME YOU READ THIS, SHE WILL NOT BE WRITING. OR SHE MAY BE WRITING, BUT NOT THESE SAME WORDS. NATALIE TISCHLER WILL NOW TAKE A SIP OF COFFEE. NATALIE TISCHLER WOULD LIKE TO MAKE AN AUTOBIOGRAPHY BECAUSE ALL SHE DOES IS OBSERVE HERSELF AND ALL THE THINGS SHE WRITES AND SEES ARE AN ACCUMULATION OF HERSELF. ︎ WEDNESDAY APRIL 1 9A LA TIME - WEEK 9 DAY 2 THERE’S A LITTLE BIT OF SUN DAPPLING THROUGH THE TREES ONTO MY EYES. INTO MY EYES, ACROSS THE PAGE, SO THAT I SEE THE SHADOW OF MY HAND WHILE IT WRITES. OH, TO BE BACK IN TOUCH WITH THE MUNDANE. TO FEEL THE SIMPLE PLEASURE OF THE SUN ON MY SKIN, LIGHT LEAKING ACROSS THE PAGE—THOSE ARE NOT MY WORDS. I WOULD NOT SAY LIGHT “LEAKS” UNLESS IT WAS SOCIALIZED AS A PHRASE UNTO ME. I WOULD PERHAPS SAY SPILLS, LIGHT SPILLS. OR WHISPERS. LIGHT WHISPERS. LIGHT WHISPERS OF THE SUN AS IT COMES IN AND OUT OF THE SPACE: A WHITE METAL TABLE ATOP TRIMMED GRASS, FAKE GRASS I NOW LOOK DOWN AND CONFIRM, HOLDING A WHITE METAL TABLE I, BEFORE SITTING, WIPED CLEAN OF DAYS, WEEKS OF DUST AND DIRT, NOW CLEAN, NOW HOLDING THIS VERY BOOK IN WHICH I WRITE THESE VERY MUNDANE OBSERVATIONS AND GET SATISFACTION, WHILE THE LIGHT LEAKS IN AND CASTS SHADOWS ON THE TABLE TO REMIND ME THAT YES, THE BOOK IS IN FACT SITTING ATOP THE TABLE UNDERNEATH MY HANDS HOLDING THIS PEN THAT WRITES SUCH MUNDANE THOUGHTS. HOW I GET SUCH JOY FROM SUCH MUNDANITY. I HEAR THE VOICE OF MY FATHER SEEP THROUGH THE DINING ROOM WINDOW—AS IF WE ARE A FAMILY AGAIN, AS IF WE’VE WOKEN UP TO A NEW LIFE WHERE NOTHING FEELS NEW BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS FAMILIAR. WE’VE WOKEN UP AND RETURNED TO FRESH EYES ON OUR PREVIOUS LIVES. THE BIRDS SING, MELODY WITH ONE ANOTHER. MY FATHER’S VOICE JUST ANOTHER SONG AGAINST THE CONTINUOUS PASSING OF TRAFFIC. A WHITE NOISE, A FOG OVER THE DETAILS, ASIDE FROM THE FEW WORDS WE HEAR WHEN WE DECIDE TO TUNE IN, OR DURING THE INFREQUENT LULL OF CARS PASSING, FILLED BY DISCREET SONGS AND CONCRETE WORDS—WE WISH THE TRAFFIC WOULD COME BACK NOW. WHO IS “WE”? WHO AM I ABSTRACTING MYSELF INTO? I YELL TO MY FATHER TO CLOSE THE WINDOW OVER, I NEED TO HEAR MY VOICE AMONG THE BIRD SONG AND TRAFFIC. I, AS ONE, NEED TO MELT INTO THE ONGOING TRAFFIC AND CACOPHONY. I NEED MY WORDS TO BLEND IN. I WANT THE WORDS I WRITE TO COME FROM THE VOID—STRAIGHT FROM THE THROATS OF THE BIRDS AND THE UNDETECTED SPEED OF CARS ON THE FREEWAY. I WANT TO HEAR MY VOICE IN THE DRIPPINGS OF YESTERDAY’S RAIN FROM THE GUTTER, IN THE SOUNDS OF AN AIRCRAFT THAT CAN ONLY BE HEARD AND NEVER SEEN. I WANT TO FIND MYSELF IN THE SEARCH, AND NEVER FIND MYSELF. I WANT TO ACCEPT MYSELF AS THE PERPETUAL SEARCH. SO I SCATTER MYSELF AMONG THE FLEETING SHADOWS, DISPERSE THE WORDS ACROSS THE PAGE. I DISSOLVE INTO DIRECT SUNLIGHT THAT PLACES ORBS OF INVISIBLE LIGHT ON EACH EYELASH WHEN I SQUINT JUST ENOUGH. HOW DO I KNOW THIS? THAT IS THE BEAUTY OF WRITING; OF NOT KNOWING, AND BEING COMFORTABLE ENOUGH IN A FEELING THAT IT TRANSLATES ITSELF INTO WORDS. A MOMENT OF QUIET—JUST A MOMENT. MORE TIME LAPSES BETWEEN EACH WORD. THE WORLD OFFERS MORE STILLNESS. AND I, PRESENT TO RECEIVE IT. I, STILL, STILL ENOUGH TO OBSERVE THE LIGHT LEAKING THROUGH THE PICKET FENCE (YES, LEAKING, AS IT SEEPS THROUGH THE SPACES IN BETWEEN MATTER AND CREATES ITS OWN MATTER ELSEWHERE), PLACING LINES OF LIGHT ONTO THE ARTIFICIAL GRASS, ONE NEXT TO A MOUND OF DOG POOP FROM THE SAME DOG WHO WENT ON THE STAIRS AND MY FATHER STEPPED IN. I REMEMBER LYING IN BED AND ASKING MY FATHER TO TELL ME STORIES ABOUT BINGO, THE BLACK TERRIER HE HAD AS A CHILD. I THINK IT WAS JUST ONE STORY, THE SAME STORY I NO LONGER REMEMBER AND WILL HAVE TO ASK HIM WHEN I RETURN INSIDE. THIS MORNING I HANDED HIM A TOWEL AFTER HE TOLD ME HE STEPPED IN POOP. HE IS ABOUT TO HAVE A MEETING WITH A NEW PSYCHIATRIST AND I OVERHEAR AS MUCH OF THEIR CONVERSATION AS I TUNE INTO FROM THE KITCHEN. HOW INTERESTING IT IS TO CONSTRUCT ONE’S LIFE. TO CHOOSE WORDS THAT TELL A STORY, NOTICING WHICH WORDS YOU CHOOSE BUT NEVER WONDERING WHY. BECAUSE THE WORDS ARE PART OF LIFE—HOW YOU TELL A STORY IS YOUR STORY AND LIFE IS ONE LONG STORY. A BEGINNING, AN ENDING, BOTH EVASIVE AND MYSTERIOUS, WITHOUT MEMORY. WITHOUT THE ABILITY TO PUT WORDS TO THE EXPERIENCE AND YET—LIFE STILL HAPPENS. AND THEN YOU REALIZE LIFE IS HAPPENING. YOU PUT WORDS TO WHAT IS HAPPENING. AND WHAT HAPPENS, HAPPENS, WHETHER OR NOT ONE PUTS WORDS TO IT. LIFE DOES NOT NEED WORDS OR UNDERSTANDING TO HAPPEN. YET HERE I AM PUTTING WORDS TO THE SUN’S SHINE, HOW IT HITS THE MUG OF COFFEE AND AHA! THERE IS AN IMITATION OF THE MUG SPLAYED ONTO THE TABLE. THESE WORDS TRACE ITS OUTLINE, DISTINGUISH IT FROM THE MUG, FROM THE TABLE, FROM THE SUN AND ITS LIGHT. DISTINGUISH THE SUN FROM ITS LIGHT, SEPARATE MY SELF FROM THE SUN AS I SAY “IT DOES THIS TO ME,” MAKING ME MYSELF AND IT ANOTHER. OH HOW WORDS DIVIDE… EACH THING INTO A THING UPON ITSELF. AND EACH I SEPARATE FROM THE THING I OBSERVE. I NOTICE THIS, YET I WANT EVERY THING TO BE WHOLE. I WANT THE LIGHT AND SUN A PART OF MY SKIN. I WANT MY FATHER SEEING THE PSYCHIATRIST TO BE MY FATHER TELLING THE STORY OF BINGO. I WANT NOW TO BE THEN AND THE FUTURE TO REMEMBER THIS FEELING. AND THE LEAKING OF THE GUTTER TO STOP DRIPPING AND FORGET IT EVER DRIPPED. I WANT THIS ALL TO MAKE SENSE IN WORDS BUT I KNOW I WILL NEVER MAKE SENSE OF THIS ALL, OR ANYTHING AT ALL. I WRITE TO PASS THE TIME AND FEEL THIS. IN WORDS, I TELL MYSELF I CAN CAPTURE THIS MOMENT, I CAN BE IN TIME WITHOUT FEELING IT PASS. IN WRITING, I FEEL MY SELF IN ETERNITY. IN THE MUNDANITY OF LIGHT THAT HAS ALWAYS LEAKED AND WILL ALWAYS LEAK, I REMEMBER I AM HUMAN AND FORGET MY SELF EXISTING. BECAUSE IN ETERNITY, THERE IS NO LIGHT THAT LEAKS OR GUTTERS THAT DRIP OR STORIES THAT ARE TOLD. THERE ARE NO WORLDS TO DESCRIBE THE FEELING; EVERYTHING IS. OH I DON’T WANT TO END THIS WAY. THERE IS PRESSURE FOR AN ENDING TO BE GRANDEOUS, TO LEAVE YOU WITH SOMETHING, TO MAKE THE STORY WORTH READING, TO MAKE LIFE WORTH LIVING. I MUST GO INSIDE NOW—THE LIGHT HITTING THE ARTIFICIAL GRASS HAS MADE THE SMELL OF DOG SHIT TOO STRONG. ANOTHER SIGN: A DROP OF SHIT-COLORED LIQUID COMES FROM ABOVE AND SITS ON THIS VERY PAGE. ︎ <img width="182" height="278" width_o="182" height_o="278" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/99e8c8bf38c134a688de798354c470a25f939e2e979738fb5419ee27c89de59c/images.jpg" data-mid="247541177" border="0" data-scale="16" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/182/i/99e8c8bf38c134a688de798354c470a25f939e2e979738fb5419ee27c89de59c/images.jpg" /> <img width="181" height="278" width_o="181" height_o="278" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/e2bb47d07a5b6aed52a66da0db1b8701f43b161ae515f927d1e72ec74ba616a5/images.jpg" data-mid="247869423" border="0" data-scale="16" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/181/i/e2bb47d07a5b6aed52a66da0db1b8701f43b161ae515f927d1e72ec74ba616a5/images.jpg" /> <img width="1000" height="1000" width_o="1000" height_o="1000" 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height="8817" width_o="6909" height_o="8817" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/f9fc8b1a6d86ce2eaece9c9af2cc3add19f113dbc29312f762a681f2fe504f7a/5.jpg" data-mid="245919288" border="0" data-scale="74" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/f9fc8b1a6d86ce2eaece9c9af2cc3add19f113dbc29312f762a681f2fe504f7a/5.jpg" /> ------------------- <img width="5865" height="10010" width_o="5865" height_o="10010" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/66d532e3e019c4a27a39977deb83b6e32a2730779c3ae908796cc2e99b3f807a/l.jpg" data-mid="245919280" border="0" data-scale="51" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/66d532e3e019c4a27a39977deb83b6e32a2730779c3ae908796cc2e99b3f807a/l.jpg" />------------------- ------------------- <img width="7385" height="10121" width_o="7385" height_o="10121" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/0ed64b78623e3c9ee99c890be4fe7a40cafa751a7ed944d522cde92892d39b45/Scanned-Documents-3.jpg" data-mid="245804016" border="0" data-scale="69" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/0ed64b78623e3c9ee99c890be4fe7a40cafa751a7ed944d522cde92892d39b45/Scanned-Documents-3.jpg" /> ------------------- <img width="7406" height="4346" width_o="7406" height_o="4346" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/98d8c297cad3c0181f15c8ce255155d42e114e7e2edc585936187ff6209351d1/THEY.jpg" data-mid="245919281" border="0" data-scale="30" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/98d8c297cad3c0181f15c8ce255155d42e114e7e2edc585936187ff6209351d1/THEY.jpg" />- https://natalietischler.info/FEB26 Thu, 26 Feb 2026 19:18:11 +0000 Natalie Tischler https://natalietischler.info/FEB26 FEBRUARY 2026 THURSDAY FEBRUARY 26 226P I DON’T WANT TO BE CALCULATED. I WANT THE FREEDOM OF NATURE. I WANT THE LIGHT ON MY SKIN FROM THE SUN TO MAKE ME GROW. I WANT THE FREEDOM OF SUNSHINE, BOUNDLESS AS IT TOUCHES EVERYTHING WITHIN ITS REACH WITHOUT LEAVING A MARK, WITHOUT TAKING ANYTHING WITH IT AS IT MELTS INTO SOLITUDE, ITS SLOW RETREAT. RETIRING INTO ITSELF—OH SUN, WHERE DO YOU GO? WHERE DO YOU DISTANCE YOURSELF TO, WITH ALL THIS LIGHT? YOU TAKE IT WITH YOU AS YOU RETREAT INTO SOLITUDE. YOU DISAPPEAR INTO YOUR OWN LIGHT. I FEEL THE SUN TODAY. THOUGH I USUALLY FEEL THE MOON. I’LL WANDER HOME, WANDER INTO THE SUN. EMBRACE ITS SHADOWS AS PART OF LIFE. UNTIL IT RETREATS, MORE SHADOW THAN LIGHT, AS THE SOFT DUSK GETS SOFTER, IN BETWEEN SUN AND MOON, WHERE FEELING REPLACES WORDS AND—OH! THERE IS THE MOON, ARE YOU FULL? ARE YOU AS BRIGHT AS THE SUN IN YOUR COLD LIGHT? YOUR EMISSION. SUN WHO SHINES. MOON, YOU EMIT.&nbsp; MOON SUBTLE IN YOUR MOVEMENT, YOU APPEAR WITHOUT A SOUND. MOON SUBTLE IN YOUR WAYS, I OPEN MY EYES AND AT ONCE THEY ARE FILLED, FULL OF MOON. IN FIRST BLINK EMPTY EYES; THE NEXT, FILLED WITH YOUR PRAYER. YES, I AM STILL YOURS. AND YOU ARE STILL MY LITTLE SECRET. I WANT YOU. I DON’T WANT YOU. I REMEMBER MEXICO. I WANDER, ALONE. I LOOK UP WITHOUT LOOKING, LOOKING UP UNTIL I SEE YOU. AND YOU SEE ME, I SEE YOU SEEING ME, I FEEL YOU SEEING ME, BECAUSE I CANNOT LOOK AWAY. THERE YOU ARE, I CANNOT DENY IT. THE MOON IS MY LOVER. I CANNOT DENY THIS. YOU ARE THE FAMILIAR IN MY UNFAMILIAR. YOU KEEP ME WITH YOU, HOLD ME WITHOUT MY NEED TO BE HELD. THERE YOU ARE. THERE, YOU ARE HOLDING ME, HOLDING ME THERE. WHILE I’M HERE, ANYWHERE BUT HERE, HOLDING MYSELF IN PLACE WHILE I DRIFT, ANYWHERE BUT HERE. HERE, I AM DRIFTING. THERE, YOU CATCH ME, UP THERE, WHERE I LEAST EXPECT TO BE CAUGHT. DRIFTING, I DRIFT, WITH A DESTINATION: UP THERE. A DRIFT TURNED DESTINATION AS I DIRECT MYSELF TOWARD YOU, A SINGLE LINE, FROM ME TO YOU, HERE I COME. HERE, A DESTINATION. THERE TURNED HERE AS MY DIRECTION BECOME DESTINATION AS YOU BECOME I AS WE ARE HERE. HERE, WE ARE A LOVE LETTER TO THE SUN, THEN THE MOON: ︎ <img width="1651" height="1914" width_o="1651" height_o="1914" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/35c67e35a5733c4e269efeb64d71d68d19ded4b1c43e970d8e0c08f7cff33728/toco-ANY-of-My.jpg" data-mid="245356391" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/35c67e35a5733c4e269efeb64d71d68d19ded4b1c43e970d8e0c08f7cff33728/toco-ANY-of-My.jpg" /> <img width="1650" height="1913" width_o="1650" height_o="1913" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/de1fe674b75586080557e3e390c254822c3a8ef69987be9db39c80032af6130a/1.jpg" data-mid="245356390" border="0" data-scale="28" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/de1fe674b75586080557e3e390c254822c3a8ef69987be9db39c80032af6130a/1.jpg" /> <img width="2158" height="1821" width_o="2158" height_o="1821" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/20f1dfaac4ac0f5a91b0211a4769ba431466742155bebaf08f564ce1dc934d3d/00.jpg" data-mid="245356495" border="0" data-scale="91" 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data-mid="245356505" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/b18299ba38225a5243648f97cc62b6dd751ae6522183741c5a2242bc35955126/6.jpg" /> ‘ <img width="6305" height="2931" width_o="6305" height_o="2931" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/4bfdab37639a4f5ce5908245bfc5a74394ae06571961cb359f645daa3c1a8c63/57.jpg" data-mid="245356507" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/4bfdab37639a4f5ce5908245bfc5a74394ae06571961cb359f645daa3c1a8c63/57.jpg" /> <img width="5581" height="7527" width_o="5581" height_o="7527" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/62ce1ee0a2a9b7d8a4cd9f6f7b80431c3920f4d34a895536bf113951729612b7/67.jpg" data-mid="245356506" border="0" data-scale="48" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/62ce1ee0a2a9b7d8a4cd9f6f7b80431c3920f4d34a895536bf113951729612b7/67.jpg" /> ︎ <img width="5712" height="4284" width_o="5712" height_o="4284" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/d4b71bf5d02217971a957e8765b22e4efa496bd008dc8fa0799d107defb3c2c7/IMG_2543.jpeg" data-mid="245371565" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/d4b71bf5d02217971a957e8765b22e4efa496bd008dc8fa0799d107defb3c2c7/IMG_2543.jpeg" /><img width="5712" height="4284" width_o="5712" height_o="4284" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/65cb720a7239991097d6094cc81737379f4b732b0bd1900fdf132145221a9ab2/IMG_2515.jpeg" data-mid="245371623" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/65cb720a7239991097d6094cc81737379f4b732b0bd1900fdf132145221a9ab2/IMG_2515.jpeg" /><img width="4032" height="3024" width_o="4032" height_o="3024" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/4bda1e8744ab6c58c794e1e23858807585b4846ec513ba01d86d879934c719a5/IMG_2322.jpeg" data-mid="245371622" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/4bda1e8744ab6c58c794e1e23858807585b4846ec513ba01d86d879934c719a5/IMG_2322.jpeg" /><img width="4032" 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data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/4042af76868a56598733edc047d4e84165ea9373209045420aade3d502df41c2/IMG_2526-Medium.jpeg" data-mid="245371638" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/640/i/4042af76868a56598733edc047d4e84165ea9373209045420aade3d502df41c2/IMG_2526-Medium.jpeg" /><img width="4276" height="3207" width_o="4276" height_o="3207" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/d7245406dd2b9fbac122c5c64f4f4c05c3404d812f03ad43bfc75313c5e957f6/IMG_2513.jpeg" data-mid="245371635" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/d7245406dd2b9fbac122c5c64f4f4c05c3404d812f03ad43bfc75313c5e957f6/IMG_2513.jpeg" /><img width="4284" height="5712" width_o="4284" height_o="5712" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/83bc021706d99e637756888615164e32f1448ecd07e95b3d2345229170243133/IMG_2392.jpeg" data-mid="245371628" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/83bc021706d99e637756888615164e32f1448ecd07e95b3d2345229170243133/IMG_2392.jpeg" /><img width="5712" height="4284" width_o="5712" height_o="4284" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/84e7f6a54c74aea23ef7408f906e20a5abc28130d64f40be6dcbe31bf6acdcb0/IMG_2516.jpeg" data-mid="245371566" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/84e7f6a54c74aea23ef7408f906e20a5abc28130d64f40be6dcbe31bf6acdcb0/IMG_2516.jpeg" /> ︎ SATURDAY FEBRUARY 21 302P HEIZER MAKES YOU FEEL BIG. AND SMALL. LIKE NEW YORK, OR THE VIEW FROM AN AIRPLANE—YOU CAN'T QUITE ORIENT YOURSELF. ONCE YOU ATTACH YOURSELF TO A SHAPE, IT QUICKLY CHANGES AND ANOTHER FORMS IN ITS PLACE. ONCE YOU ARE BIG, YOU ARE ONCE AGAIN SMALL. PERCEPTION IS ORIENTED AND DISORIENTED, WITH NO CONSISTENT OR LASTING POINT OF REFERENCE. ONCE YOU FEEL A PART OF SOMETHING, YOU ARE ONCE AGAIN AN ISLAND. FROM ABOVE, YOU REMEMBER WHAT IT IS TO BE BELOW, WHERE YOU CAN NO LONGER PICTURE THE ABOVE. SO YOU DREAM, AND IN BETWEEN, YOU WANDER AND WONDER, WAIT FOR THE WORDS TO COME IN ANSWERS THAT ONLY ARRIVE IN FEELINGS, WHICH MAKE YOU WANDER MORE, WONDER MORE, FEEL MORE, DREAM MORE. MORE QUESTIONS. MORE ANSWERS, WHICH YOU DEPOSIT BELOW IN EXCHANGE FOR THE SEARCH FROM ABOVE, WHERE YOU DISCARD ALL ORIENTATION IN EXCHANGE FOR THE SAKE OF FLOATING IN BETWEEN, IN FEELING, CONVOLUTED LINE A AND CONVOLUTED LINE B. <img width="3404" height="1788" width_o="3404" height_o="1788" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/8e27715c0caed370a80a08431a2a5912a4a49f4b34447575ca2e2c5640e592b3/6rhps1FTLjoN_4800x4800.jpg" data-mid="245772665" border="0" data-scale="46" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/8e27715c0caed370a80a08431a2a5912a4a49f4b34447575ca2e2c5640e592b3/6rhps1FTLjoN_4800x4800.jpg" /> <img width="270" height="187" width_o="270" height_o="187" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/1e5724ff28c1b8bdf34f9792b4f8f38a8c699ce12601eae9f2839b6ee0b7abfe/images.jpg" data-mid="245772666" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/270/i/1e5724ff28c1b8bdf34f9792b4f8f38a8c699ce12601eae9f2839b6ee0b7abfe/images.jpg" /> https://natalietischler.info/DEC25-1 Tue, 30 Dec 2025 03:42:50 +0000 Natalie Tischler https://natalietischler.info/DEC25-1 DECEMBER 2025 <img width="5478" height="5203" width_o="5478" height_o="5203" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/0ba51e7be66f71b0a62c9b76e7eb6dc3fb6cbe75f3fd334c61833d7b65235eca/o.jpg" data-mid="245516529" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/0ba51e7be66f71b0a62c9b76e7eb6dc3fb6cbe75f3fd334c61833d7b65235eca/o.jpg" /><img width="4280" height="6355" width_o="4280" height_o="6355" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/a71e1b0f0e14a2eecc70a7e4ac583b899e6d0714cdc28967e07d286cb1e703c7/ll.jpg" data-mid="245516535" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/a71e1b0f0e14a2eecc70a7e4ac583b899e6d0714cdc28967e07d286cb1e703c7/ll.jpg" /><img width="6125" height="5925" width_o="6125" height_o="5925" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/eb173f891cd0d73caeb46e9e25d0380af9a09bc32b37c31bd1e7ab42a7c69094/p.jpg" data-mid="245516530" border="0" 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data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/d502c767217b95d2dc99353c55d8e217390aa329db7556d3ec6fc27826c2e98f/DSC03483.JPG" data-mid="240795733" border="0" data-scale="30" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/d502c767217b95d2dc99353c55d8e217390aa329db7556d3ec6fc27826c2e98f/DSC03483.JPG" /> THIS IS ALL JUST A WAY OF MOVING THROUGH TIME. <img width="1179" height="923" width_o="1179" height_o="923" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/c04b8e6b1b9774ef67e7a2911f1f1776072f853184e444802089af44bdd43ffc/View-recent-photos.png" data-mid="245773389" border="0" data-scale="53" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/c04b8e6b1b9774ef67e7a2911f1f1776072f853184e444802089af44bdd43ffc/View-recent-photos.png" /> WHEN I WRITE, I GIVE MYSELF THE FREEDOM. IT’S A FREEDOM SO FREE I DON’T KNOW WHAT IS WRITTEN UNTIL I WRITE IT. IT’S A FREEDOM SO FREE THAT WHAT IS WRITTEN BELONGS TO NO ONE; I GO ALONG WITH IT. I FOLLOW WHAT IS WRITTEN AND IT BECOMES A TRUTH I INHABIT. I BELIEVE IN THE WORD AND THIS VERY MOMENT. THE WORD IS MY FREEDOM: LET IT RING! (I SURPRISE MYSELF WHEN I WRITE AND THAT’S HOW I KNOW I’M GIVING MY SELF FREEDOM. BECUASE I CAN NEVER SURPRISE MYSELF IN MY BODY THAT IS SO FIXED AND HARDWIRED UNLESS I FAINT OR CRY AND BURST INTO A SURPRISE LIKE LETTING IN THE FUTURE. I HOLD MY SELF IN EACH WORD THAT IS TIED TO EACH VERY MOMENT AS A STRING OF LETTERS HANG FROM A CLOTHESLINE…) THERE ARE THINGS I CANNOT AND DO NOT SAY, THINGS I DON’T KNOW HOW TO SAY. I WANT TO SAY “I DON’T KNOW HOW TO BE ME” AND INSTEAD I SAY SOMETHING I THINK SOMEONE ELSE WOULD SAY. I WANT TO SAY “LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM, LOVE EVERY PART OF ME, EVEN THIS ONE WITH NOTHING TO SAY,” BUT THE WORDS ARE TOO FRAGILE. NOT EVEN I CAN HOLD THEM UP. I’M FLOATING IN THE OCEAN, THEN I BUMP INTO SOMETHING AND THINK IT IS THE TRUTH. UNTIL I SLOWLY DRIFT AWAY AND IT BECOMES SMALLER, SMALLER, SO SMALL IT DISSAPPEARS ALONG WITH MY MEMORY OF IT … BUT THERE’S ALWAYS A FRAGMENT OF MY SELF LEFT WITH THE DISTANT TRUTHS; MY BODY CANNOT FORGET ITSELF AND ALL ITS PARTS. <img width="6448" height="10561" width_o="6448" height_o="10561" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/71c13102a7809af975a37e302add8cb8ee91489bae8ef92f2fe1a19c91f62527/Scanned-Documents-2.jpg" data-mid="240795973" border="0" data-scale="36" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/71c13102a7809af975a37e302add8cb8ee91489bae8ef92f2fe1a19c91f62527/Scanned-Documents-2.jpg" /> TO LIVE IN BETWEEN EVERY THING … DETAILS OF THE WORLDFOREGROUND MIDDLEGROUND BACKGROUNDOF SIGHT, OF SOUND.TO MY THOUGHTS:ON THE FOREFRONTCREEPING UP IS WHAT HAPPENEDHAPPENING AGAIN AND AGAIN (ABOVE ME THERE IS NO SKYAPPROACHING, IT IS BLUEOVER THERE, THERE IS SKYTHANK YOU FOR BEING YOU) ︎ &nbsp; <img width="661" height="1000" width_o="661" height_o="1000" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/70a09274059a8ede4c242b92ccdd5ec1cbc41c37219bda003fd7052470afae6e/51xDPe-JRbL._UF1000-1000_QL80_.jpg" data-mid="239283730" border="0" data-scale="15" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/661/i/70a09274059a8ede4c242b92ccdd5ec1cbc41c37219bda003fd7052470afae6e/51xDPe-JRbL._UF1000-1000_QL80_.jpg" /> <img width="648" height="1000" width_o="648" height_o="1000" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/ab95b12f73503bca139b946d84e97ad32bc693d04a053cbe65a2074a746aa229/71Ww2VyUBvL._AC_UF1000-1000_QL80_.jpg" data-mid="239601974" border="0" data-scale="15" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/648/i/ab95b12f73503bca139b946d84e97ad32bc693d04a053cbe65a2074a746aa229/71Ww2VyUBvL._AC_UF1000-1000_QL80_.jpg" /> <img width="652" height="1000" width_o="652" height_o="1000" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/65063774824217d3ddb2697628b2319d29f83a5521171d05851ba29618e55152/71rMB0MnUxL._UF1000-1000_QL80_.jpg" data-mid="240089678" border="0" data-scale="15" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/652/i/65063774824217d3ddb2697628b2319d29f83a5521171d05851ba29618e55152/71rMB0MnUxL._UF1000-1000_QL80_.jpg" /> https://natalietischler.info/SEPT25 Sun, 12 Oct 2025 02:42:08 +0000 Natalie Tischler https://natalietischler.info/SEPT25 SEPTEMBER 2025 XXXDAY SEPTEMBER XX XXXXAMPM IF TIME IS LINEAR, SUMMER IS DISTORTED LIKE A SWOLLEN STOMACH. <img width="4200" height="699" width_o="4200" height_o="699" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/40d43d9a16ecb9cec05176c4f8196aa90ebe97ac138d5df039435dbf67e11eb0/GLUE-1.png" data-mid="239348701" border="0" data-scale="35" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/40d43d9a16ecb9cec05176c4f8196aa90ebe97ac138d5df039435dbf67e11eb0/GLUE-1.png" /> SUMMER IS A DAZE, A DAYDREAM. SUMMER IS OVER, THINGS BECOME QUIET IN A DAY’S PASSING. I LEARNED THE IMPORTANCE OF WATER. “THE LARGER A MAN GROWS IN HIS OWN INNER DARKNESS, THE MORE HIS OUTER FORM DIMINISHES” THINGS ARE BLOCKED AND DO NOT COME. I GUESS I HAVE NOTHING ELSE TO FIXATE ON TODAY. LABRYNTH ORBITING OFFERING THE THING FOR YOU TO DISCOVER AND PUT MEANING INTO CHILL IN THE AIR THIS MORNING. BODY DEPLETED. LOW ENERGY. I DON’T WANT TO DO MUCH TODAY. FALL BRINGS A YELLOW TO THE SUNLIGHT THAT PERSISTS THROUGHOUT THE DAY. EVERYTHING IS GOLDEN. SOMETIMES I FORGET WHAT HAPPENED TO ME THE DAY BEFORE - I SLEEP SO DEEPLY AND WAKE INTO A NEW DAY. <img width="6929" height="1141" width_o="6929" height_o="1141" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/7655ab7447b7e300c925a79f1db24e31f2edb70405d9e28afcbfccf3fc15bc86/then-now.png" data-mid="239376206" border="0" data-scale="98" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/7655ab7447b7e300c925a79f1db24e31f2edb70405d9e28afcbfccf3fc15bc86/then-now.png" /> STILL – PEAKS, WITH MORE FREQUENT RETURNS TO BASE. WITH MORE PREDICTABILITY. WITH MORE KNOWLEDGE OF THRESHOLDS AND GREATER AWARENESS TO REMAIN WITHIN THEM. <img width="6929" height="1708" width_o="6929" height_o="1708" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/a9bd4104dfc620b2388fb011f1648356ac5b4e6e6f7d21f50436a8c28e98a725/then-now-2.png" data-mid="239376207" border="0" data-scale="99" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/a9bd4104dfc620b2388fb011f1648356ac5b4e6e6f7d21f50436a8c28e98a725/then-now-2.png" /> RESILIENCE!!&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; <img width="6929" height="5000" width_o="6929" height_o="5000" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/47995a3c9aac39da80a030c899a3198ea211b38801a7393bc21b6d742aded2fa/foot.png" data-mid="239376211" border="0" data-scale="77" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/47995a3c9aac39da80a030c899a3198ea211b38801a7393bc21b6d742aded2fa/foot.png" /> SOMEWHERE BETWEEN THE SEA AND FULL MOON… MY TODAY DRAWINGS, NOW! SEPTEMBER 30TH… <img width="5920" height="4646" width_o="5920" height_o="4646" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/c51c1139fe4144de794b8f3fcdd41a9af5d61ad6340c91c886803ab2a99cd80b/window.png" data-mid="239376258" border="0" data-scale="69" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/c51c1139fe4144de794b8f3fcdd41a9af5d61ad6340c91c886803ab2a99cd80b/window.png" /> ‘I SEE NOW WHAT I DID NOT SEE BEFORE AND I ALSO SEE BEFORE AND THEY APPEAR TO BE THE SAME THOUGH ONE IS THEN AND THIS IS NOW AND IN LOOKING NOW THE BEFORE CHANGES’ IN BOTH WINDOWS SEEN THE SAME THING BUT AT DIFFERENT TIMES. IS THE THING THE SAME THING, THEN? WHICH ONE IS THE CORRECT TRUE REAL THING? THE ONE SEEN IN THIS MOMENT OR THE ONE SEEN BEFORE? STARTED WRITING DOWN MOMENTS OF THE DAY TO END THE DAY TO RECOUNT AND RELIVE MOMENTS THAT BLUR FROM ONE TO NEXT FROM ONE DAY TO NEXT; HERE I SLOW THEM DOWN, CAPTURE THEM … *MOON DRAWING* ’SAW THE MOON SMILE AT ME BETWEEN SUN AND SEA’ WOKE UP WITH MY BED IN THE CENTER OF MY ROOM. I SEE A RIPPLE IN THE OCEAN BELOW AS IF TWO PIECES OF LAND MEET AND IN BETWEEN A LINE OF FIRE, VOLCANIC MATTER DIVIDES, SPLITS. “THE UNUSUAL TIMES”“ON THE SURFACE, AN INTELLIGIBLE LIE; UNDERNEATH, THE UNINTELLIGIBLE TRUTH SHOWING THROUGH” GOODBYE, GOODBYE. NOW I WILL CAPTURE THE MOMENT PASSED AND GIVE IT NEW LIFE. (IN WRITING DOWN MOMENTS I RELIVE THE MOMENT AND LENGTHEN ITS LIFESPAN; WRITING IS EXPANDING TIME) I WENT TOO FAST FOR MY SELF TODAY AND THIS WHOLE WEEK A WEEK AFTER I DID THE THING I SAID I WAS GOING TO DO EVERY DAY (I DIDN’T). TODAY: TODAY I WANTED SO BADLY TO BE ALONE, THEN GOT MAD AT MYSELF FOR WANTING TO BE ALONE. THEN CRIED. OR FIRST WANTED TO CRY THEN GOT UPSET AT MYSELF FOR NEEDING TO CRY. THEN CRIED. RUSHING THROUGH EVERYTHING OR BEING ELSEWHERE. I MUST REMEMBER TO BE IN A BODY I MUST ACCEPT MY SELF AS I AM AS I DO I MUST ACCEPT OTHERS AS THEY ARE AS THEY DO I WAIT FOR WHAT COMES AND THAT IS ME: <img width="6277" height="928" width_o="6277" height_o="928" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/20b993ade688b1c6cfea53226fc8df549b3e6e95bd662c5e512799afb8199d40/bounce.png" data-mid="239376292" border="0" data-scale="56" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/20b993ade688b1c6cfea53226fc8df549b3e6e95bd662c5e512799afb8199d40/bounce.png" /> WAITING IN SILENCE AND STILLNESS FOR WHAT COMES I PREPARE MY SELF BY BATHING IN THE POOL OF NOTHINGNESS EMPTY TO A LIMINAL STATE WAITING IS A PRACTICE WAITING IS AN ACTION (IN LANGUAGE WAITING IS A VERB) I PREPARE MY SELF TO BE RECEPTIVE TO THE MOMENT IN ORDER TO ACCEPT THE MOMENT FULLY I MUST MAKE ROOM; I EMPTY MY SELF. BATHE IN THE POOL OF NOTHINGNESS EMPTINESS IS THE PUREST FORM OF BEING. CLOSEST TO NOT-BEING WHICH IS THE ULTIMATE FORM. NOT-BEING PRECEDES AND FOLLOWS US. WE AS WE BEING IS SELF BETWEEN NOT-BEING I DON’T THINK I WILL UNDERSTAND UNTIL AFTER&nbsp; WAYS OF MEASURING TIME: 100,000 HEARTBEATS IN ONE DAY. HOW MANY BREATHS HOW MANY WORDS SPOKEN? STOPPING TIME IN TIME’S PASSING MILES TRAVELED IN MACHINE STEPS TAKEN IN MACHINE (BODY) BLINKS OF AN EYE HOW TO DRAW MOVEMENT LIKE CAPTURING LIGHT WATER IN CONSTANT MOTION A FRAGMENT OF A MOMENT IS NOW IN THE PAST NOW IN THE NOW IS NOW IN THE PAST HOW DOES TIME SHOW ITSELF? HOW DOES TIME SHOW ITSELF: ROCK FORMATIONS CHANGE OVER TIME FROM HORIZONTAL ALIGNED WITH EARTH’S PLANE TO … SHIFTS IN THE EARTH’S CORE ALTER THE PERCEPTIBLE LANDSCAPE WHAT WAS, IS NOW: A LINE ONCE STRAIGHT NOW TILTING WITH TIME. STRIATIONS ARE TIME’S APPEARANCE <img width="5017" height="4231" width_o="5017" height_o="4231" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/6f248f808f1a0ae2e4f77cab14af600afe275e53178d8cc51b3379b07fc73b36/diamond.png" data-mid="239376312" border="0" data-scale="56" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/6f248f808f1a0ae2e4f77cab14af600afe275e53178d8cc51b3379b07fc73b36/diamond.png" /> TIME MARKS THINGS AS LIGHT CASTS A SHADOW AS WRINKLES ON A FACE ... THE REALITY IS NEVER AS THE DAYDREAM. THE REALITY IS NEVER AS GOOD AS THE DAYDREAM. WRITING IS A DISCOVERY OF THE TRUTH: I ALLOW THE WORDS TO TELL ME HOW I FEEL WHEN THEY ARRIVE. I WONDER IF THEY WILL EVER MEAN SOMETHING. IF THE WORD BECOMES REAL THE DAYDREAM BECOMES REALITY AND – I WANT TO FILL MY HEAD WITH AIR. I WANT TO BE SWALLOWED BY THE SEA AND THE WATER TO REMOVE ME FROM MY I. I ONLY KNOW MY SELF ALONE AND NOW AND ANY OTHER PLACE AND TIME IS A MYSTERY. THE UNKNOWN IS A FEAR AND I LIVE IN EXTREMES – THE BIRDS AND THE FISH BETWEEN SKY AND WATER AND NOTHING GROUNDED. THE PRESENT IS THE DAYDREAM IS MY REALITY AND WHAT IS EARTHLY IS TOO FIXED. WHAT IS TANGIBLE IS MARKED AND A THING MARKED IS SOLIDIFIED. WATER TURNS INTO AIR IN A CYCLE LIKE SUN AND MOON: THESE THINGS MAKE SENSE. THE TANGIBLE MAKES TOO MUCH SENSE? THE TANGIBLE IS FIXED AND LEAVES NO ROOM FOR THE DAYDREAM. I WISH THERE WAS A MACHINE TO RECORD MY THOUGHTS, ALL I HAVE IS A BODY MACHINE BUT SO MUCH IS LOST IN THE DISTANCE FROM HEAD TO HAND AND I NEED A MACHINE TO CAPTURE THAT. WHAT IS SAID IN THIS DISTANCE MAYBE IS WHAT I AM MISSING. ARE MY THOUGHTS LOCATED IN MY HEAD. WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES I – I CLOSED MY EYES AND I SEE THEM JUST BEHIND MY FOREHEAD, JUST BEHIND AND ABOVE MY EYES. I AM SEARCHING FOR WHAT’S BEHIND MY EYES. MY FAITH IS IN WAITING AND I PREPARE MY SELF BY SPRAWLING NAKED ON A ROCK IN DIRECT SUNLIGHT, FACE UP AND EYES CLOSED; I SHOW FAITH MY FULL VULNERABILITY AND IN RETURN IT AWAKENS ME TO THE ESSENTIAL MOMENT. MOST OF LIFE IS MOMENTS UNNOTICED AND ONCE YOU SEE THE ESSENTIAL MOMENT YOU UNDERSTAND WHY WE MUST LIVE DAY-TO-DAY IN THE UNNOTICED. WITHOUT EXTREMES WE DISRESPECT THE MOMENT. WHEN THE ESSENTIAL MOMENT COMES YOU EXPERIENCE A MOMENT AS THE MOMENT. <img width="4300" height="6149" width_o="4300" height_o="6149" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/d1f1c47a6b4cf2a847fa09b8db17745fff5fec25f3822616795ff0223b5f9eed/words.png" data-mid="239377482" border="0" data-scale="50" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/d1f1c47a6b4cf2a847fa09b8db17745fff5fec25f3822616795ff0223b5f9eed/words.png" /> PROCESS X DOES Y DOES TO X Z HAPPENS TO X OVER TIME <img width="4300" height="3100" width_o="4300" height_o="3100" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/739288c5efd702f79bf41b061ca46ecdb39fe9fc07da6f5d2cb3bf83b4c7f5de/grids.png" data-mid="239377500" border="0" data-scale="44" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/739288c5efd702f79bf41b061ca46ecdb39fe9fc07da6f5d2cb3bf83b4c7f5de/grids.png" /><img width="4300" height="3100" width_o="4300" height_o="3100" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/9f29bc3dacdba34837c6eb8034e3cec99e5b5ea42396904cbd928b05e62679e4/stuff.png" data-mid="239377501" border="0" data-scale="39" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/9f29bc3dacdba34837c6eb8034e3cec99e5b5ea42396904cbd928b05e62679e4/stuff.png" /> SINCE I AM NOT X I AM NOT-X AND I SHOULD NOT TRY TO BE X. I SHOULD BE NOT-X. I AM NOT-X. NOT-X IS NOT A REACTION TO X BUT A POINT OF REFERENCE TO X. <img width="1989" height="847" width_o="1989" height_o="847" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/c3b1268bf537c195b8314c9ed98680aaa860c8134587027a6a86a00099b2826f/notx1.png" data-mid="239376482" border="0" data-scale="15" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/c3b1268bf537c195b8314c9ed98680aaa860c8134587027a6a86a00099b2826f/notx1.png" /> I KNOW I AM NOT-X BECAUSE I COME INTO CONTACT WITH X AND THINK, “THAT IS NOT I” AND IF X IS NOT I THEN WHAT IS I? MUST THE NOT-X BE DEFINED AS SOMETHING OTHER THAN NOT-X? OR NOT X? I AM NOT X, I AM NOT-X. <img width="2217" height="1397" width_o="2217" height_o="1397" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/ec7bdf2a450b05fd355b302aeb59c6a415c7306130b44e409e233f552f2b048c/notx-2.png" data-mid="239376510" border="0" data-scale="17" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/ec7bdf2a450b05fd355b302aeb59c6a415c7306130b44e409e233f552f2b048c/notx-2.png" /> NOT-X HAS ONLY X AND ITSELF AS POINTS OF REFERENCE. X’S HAVE OTHER X’S AS POINTS OF REFERENCE, WHICH IS WHY AS A GROUP THEY ARE “X” I KNOW X AS OTHER AS A POINT OF REFERENCE. X AS OTHER MEANS I AM NOT-X. SOMETIMES NOT-X COMES INTO CONTACT WITH OTHER NOT-X’S, BUT EACH NOT-X REMAINS NOT-X, AND ONE NOT-X IS NOT AS ANOTHER NOT-X. <img width="1312" height="1217" width_o="1312" height_o="1217" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/9ded680a25bc036971987bc8ac90c59e24f92c8510f7d8c551a749b7225799ef/notx3.png" data-mid="239376512" border="0" data-scale="17" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/9ded680a25bc036971987bc8ac90c59e24f92c8510f7d8c551a749b7225799ef/notx3.png" /> X AND NOT-X WILL NEVER BECOME ONE ANOTHER IN INTERACTION. THEY REMAIN AS POINTS OF CONTACT, AS “OTHER,” AND NEVER SHARE SPACE. IDEAL RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN NOT X’S: EACH NOT-X MAINTAINS ITS IDENTITY AS NOT-X WHILE ABLE TO CREATE A SHARED SPACE FOR BOTH NOT-X’S. IF I WERE TO WRITE A BOOK, IT WOULD START WITH A GIRL WHO DOES NOT KNOW HOW SHE GOT THERE. THE GIRL WOULD ASK QUESTIONS LIKE “WHY” TO AN EMPTY ROOM UNTIL ONE DAY SHE ASKS QUESTIONS TO OTHER PEOPLE, WHO ALSO BRING UP QUESTIONS INSIDE OF HER. THE PEOPLE WILL LOOK AT HER IN SHOCK FOR HER JUST BEING, EVEN BEFORE SHE ASKS THE QUESTIONS, AND WHEN THE QUESTION IS ASKED IN FEAR THEY WILL REALIZE SHE IS A GIRL POOR IN KNOWLEDGE, AND THE FEAR WILL TURN INTO PITY WITH A TILT OF THE HEAD AND A SMILE WITH TEETH. THEN THE PEOPLE WANT TO GET CLOSER, TO HELP THE GIRL. BUT ALL THE GIRL WANTS IS: TO KNOW. SHE WILL TRY TO KEEP HER EYES OPEN AS WIDE AS SHE CAN UNTIL SOMEONE TELLS HER SHE DOES NOT BLINK ENOUGH AND A QUESTION IS ANSWERED: IF SHE DOES NOT BLINK “ENOUGH,” THERE IS A RIGHT AMOUNT OF BLINKING A GIRL SHOULD PRODUCE AND SHE DOES NOT BLINK THE RIGHT AMOUNT. A GIRL SHOULD BLINK ENOUGH (BUT NOT TOO MUCH?), SO THE GIRL NOW KNOWS. THE GIRL WHO DOES NOT KNOW KNOWS MORE LIKE THIS EACH DAY. SHE WILL LOOK AND WATCH AND LISTEN AND NOW SHE KNOWS: WHAT TO SAY, AND WANT TO SAY IT, AS HELLO UPON SEEING SOMEONE FAMILIAR; AND THERE ARE MANY THINGS TO EXPLAIN HERE AT THIS PART OF WRITING THE BOOK. THE GIRL WHO DOES NOT KNOW BECOMES THE GIRL WHO KNOWS AND – FINALLY! SHE KNOWS. THE GIRL KNOWS HOW TO BE A GIRL THAT KNOWS. SHE WILL LIVE IN THIS KNOWING, KNOWING, UNTIL THE MOMENT THE NOT-KNOWING SEEPS BACK INTO THE GIRL. “AH, THIS FEELS FAMILIAR!” SHE SAYS, “I ALMOST FORGOT HOW TO NOT KNOW.” THE GIRL WILL FEED HER NOT KNOWING AND TEND TO IT LIKE A CHILD KNOWING FULL WELL THERE IS NOT PLACE FOR NOT KNOWING IN THE WORLD OF KNOWING. “I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU AGAIN,” SAYS THE GIRL WHO KNOWS, “EVEN IF I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO LOVES YOU, NOT-KNOWING.” AND SO THE GIRL WHO KNOWS LIVES WITH HER NOT-KNOWING AS DOES A LOVER WITH A MISTRESS. THE GIRL WHO KNOWS DOES NOT KNOW THAT KNOWING IS A FACT AND NOT-KNOWING AN ACT, AND WORDS CAN BE READ AND DREAMS A DEAD END … THE GIRL WHO DOES NOT KNOW IS A GIRL ALONE. THE GIRL WILL LIVE BETWEEN KNOWING AND NOT KNOWING, THINKING “OPPOSITES ATTRACT,” FORCING LIKE ENDS OF A MAGNET TO KISS. THE GIRL WHO KNOWS SHE DOES NOT KNOW, SHE DOES NOT KNOW SHE KNOWS. THE GIRL WHO KNOWS DOES NOT KNOW HER ENERGY IS SPENT, SPLIT BETWEEN TWO WORLDS. TO BE ≠ TO REPRESENT NOT TO DEFINE THE THING BUT TO LET THE THING DEFINE ITSELF PSYCHOGEOGRAPHY TAKES THE PRINCIPLE THAT EVERY THING EXPERIENCED IS A THING OBSERVED; IT ASSUMES THE ROLE OF SUBJECTIVITY AS AN INESCAPABLE NEUTRAL (BASELINE, CONTROL, GROUND). THE GROUNDS OF SUBJECTIVITYPERSONAL REALITY V. SHARED REALITY LINKING WHAT IS KNOWN AS REAL TO WHAT IS KNOWN LINKING EARTH (WHAT IS) TO MIND (WHAT IS THOUGHT) AND BODY (WHAT IS SPOKEN) INTERNAL EXPERIENCE LIVES WITHIN COLLECTIVE EXPERIENCE AND ALSO OUTSIDE OF IT, ON ITS OWN. SHARED EXPERIENCE IS BETWEEN/WITHIN INTERNAL AND COLLECTIVE EXPERIENCE <img width="1980" height="1926" width_o="1980" height_o="1926" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/0431e20b82a807ed2cddd217562d3d09dc1d26d8727b50ce8b55fb66beb9a693/abc.png" data-mid="239377527" border="0" data-scale="16" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/0431e20b82a807ed2cddd217562d3d09dc1d26d8727b50ce8b55fb66beb9a693/abc.png" /> SHARED EXPERIENCE (C) IS THE BRIDGE BETWEEN INTERNAL EXPERIENCE (B) AND COLLECTIVE EXPERIENCE (A)? <img width="3415" height="1926" width_o="3415" height_o="1926" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/084e05cf1dee3e8e39f8b70addf342072783eb0a3e77388914c6ea9262fd2a73/aabbee.png" data-mid="239377528" border="0" data-scale="41" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/084e05cf1dee3e8e39f8b70addf342072783eb0a3e77388914c6ea9262fd2a73/aabbee.png" /> INTERNAL EXPERIENCE (B) EXISTS WITHIN COLLECTIVE EXPERIENCE (A) AND ALSO OUTSIDE OF IT. SHARED EXPERIENCE (C) IS AN EXPRESSION OF INTERNAL EXPERIENCE (B) THAT STRENGTHENS AND BUILDS COLLECTIVE EXPERIENCE (A) EXPERIENCE PRECEDES UNDERSTANDING AND HOW CAN I EXPLAIN MY SELF IF I EXPERIENCE MY SELF IN ITS VERY MOMENT OF BEING? UNDERSTANDING FOLLOWS EXPERIENCE AND EXPLANATION AFTER THAT SO NOW I AM SEPARATED TWO DEGREES FROM MY SELF. TWO INSTANTS AFTER MY SELF WHO IS ALREADY IN THE FUTURE IN THE NOW-PRESENT MOMENT OF BEING. BEING-NOW IS CREATED IN THIS VERY MOMENT AND WHEN I TRY TO UNDERSTAND THIS ONE I AM ALREADY IN THE NEXT. AND SO I FOLLOW MY SELF – OBSERVE FROM A DISTANCE AS THE ONE BETWEEN THE LIVING SELF AND THE DREAMING SELF, BETWEEN THE SELF THAT SEES AND THE SELF THAT UNDERSTANDS. I AM GRATEFUL FOR UNDERSTANDING IN THIS WORLD WE ENTER ALONE. FROM ANOTHER WE ARE BORN, AND THEN ENTER THE UNKNOWN WITH A BLANK STATE, AN EMPTINESS WHICH THE VOID OF THE FUTURE AND THE INFINITE DEPTH OF THE PRESENT WILL FILL A LIGHTNESS, ALMOST UNBEARABLE, AS LETTERS ON A PAGE THAT BECOME WORDS ONLY AS YOU READ THEM BEING IS SMALL BECAUSE IT IS SIMPLE. <img width="4495" height="2000" width_o="4495" height_o="2000" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/5311a7b0565a44f73307ce5669954752f0d42508fd242cd3f591da78967cfe16/square.png" data-mid="239376112" border="0" data-scale="35" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/5311a7b0565a44f73307ce5669954752f0d42508fd242cd3f591da78967cfe16/square.png" /> IT IS A SINGLE POINT OF ENTRY INTO EACH MOMENT, THROUGH WHICH ENTERS THE WORLD, THROUGH WHICH NOTHING CAN ENTER OR BE CARRIED. THROUGH WHICH THE PRESENT IS A HAPPENING WITHOUT REFERENCE. THE PRESENT IS HAPPENING WITHOUT REMEMBERING THE PAST OR ANTICIPATING THE FUTURE. THROUGH THIS SMALL POINT THE WORLD IS BIG BECAUSE IT IS EVERYTHING. <img width="3279" height="1732" width_o="3279" height_o="1732" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/1b7ccc4d10bf80c196d689c6e08607d3fe0d02f1427f937b6ed69bf223a31fa5/paper.png" data-mid="239376137" border="0" data-scale="33" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/1b7ccc4d10bf80c196d689c6e08607d3fe0d02f1427f937b6ed69bf223a31fa5/paper.png" /> <img width="6403" height="1865" width_o="6403" height_o="1865" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/e8618d6d593ce1557281635954bfcfd5bb6796bf5f27b6711ed2fd132ee0a3f8/circles.png" data-mid="239376108" border="0" data-scale="92" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/e8618d6d593ce1557281635954bfcfd5bb6796bf5f27b6711ed2fd132ee0a3f8/circles.png" /> WHAT IS IT? HOW DOES IT MAKE ME FEEL? WHY AND HOW DOES IT PROVOKE THIS REACTION IN ME? HOW CAN THE “HOW” BE ABSTRACTED INTO A PROCESS? ASKING QUESTIONS, PROVOKING THE THING THAT PROVOKES … FINALLY: WHAT IF? MOVING FROM OBSERVER TO AGENT; FROM LOOKING TO DOING. FIRST, I AM THE OBJECT OF THE SUBJECT; THE SUBJECT (THING) PROVOKES A REACTION IN (TO) ME. THEN, THE SUBJECT (THING) BECOMES AN OBJECT OF MY SELF (NOW SUBJECT) AS I PROVOKE A REACTION IN THE THING (OBJECT). YOU MUST KNOW HOW TO BE AN OBJECT BEFORE YOU CAN BE A SUBJECT. ON JANUARY 1 2026 I WILL BEGIN A PROJECT OF COLLECTING OBJECTS EACH DAY AND PRESENTING THEM IN A DIME BAG, ONE FOR EACH DAY. THE BAGS WILL BE STAPLED TO A SHEET SUSPENDED FROM THE CEILING OF MY LIVING SPACE. THE BAGS WILL BE ORDERED CHRONOLOGICALLY. I MUST FIND THE OBJECT(S) THE SAME DAY I PUT IT INTO THE BAG. IN TIME (ONE YEAR) I WILL HAVE 365 BAGS STAPLED TO A SHEET, EACH BAG DOCUMENTING A DAY OF THE YEAR 2026. EACH BAG WILL COME WITH AN OBJECT(S) AND EACH OBJECT(S) WILL COME WITH A MEMORY. THIS IS HOW I WILL DOCUMENT MY YEAR 2026. [IT IS A WAY OF CAPTURING AND VISUALIZING TIME. THIS IS A PROCESS. PHYSICAL WORK IS THE GHOST OF PROCESS. THE RESULT IS THE GHOST OF AN ACTION (OR REPETITIVE ACTIONS)] <img width="3179" height="3161" width_o="3179" height_o="3161" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/e63c45b6d6b56c48092acfa5a467c694074d417100ab3c3b6b16948cce0a3ff0/bag.png" data-mid="239376755" border="0" data-scale="39" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/e63c45b6d6b56c48092acfa5a467c694074d417100ab3c3b6b16948cce0a3ff0/bag.png" /> [AS A TRACE OF LIVING AS LIVED EXPERIENCE AS A RESULT OF EVERYDAY LIFE AS A MORAL CODE FOR EXISTING AS THE GHOST OF ACTION NOT AS ANSWER BUT RESULT OF A QUESTION NOT AS MADE BUT CONCEIVED AS A PERPETUAL DISCOVERY OF SELF INSEPARABLE FROM LIFE AS A PERPETUAL DISCOVERY OF SELF] ...LIKE THE SILHOUETTE OF A FIGURE BLOCKING THE SUBJECT OF AN IMAGE. EVERYTHING RELEASED INTO THE ABYSS … WAVES AT THE SAME FREQUENCY THAT ARE EMITTED AND NEVER RETURN. <img width="4779" height="1200" width_o="4779" height_o="1200" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/afae4bc565a9f488bbcbd44d739683bb3e5d2ab774245b62323adfbba1a3b56c/self-other.png" data-mid="239376815" border="0" data-scale="57" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/afae4bc565a9f488bbcbd44d739683bb3e5d2ab774245b62323adfbba1a3b56c/self-other.png" /> I ADMIT THAT I KNOW NOTHING AND EVERYTHING THERE IS, IS TO BE DISCOVERED. BUT NOT HELD ON TO. TO SEE AND KNOW EVERYTHING FOR A BRIEF MOMENT, THEN RELEASED. TO OBSERVE AND NOT HOLD. TO LOOK WITHOUT SEEING. TO SEE WITHOUT LOOKING. TO EXPERIENCE WITHOUT THE FILTER OF SELF <img width="7108" height="1283" width_o="7108" height_o="1283" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/d19d5270d0e8784a81bb7fa79eefe3e11efc850845fe229d2aa264408c4f24d2/self.png" data-mid="239376816" border="0" data-scale="84" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/d19d5270d0e8784a81bb7fa79eefe3e11efc850845fe229d2aa264408c4f24d2/self.png" /> SELF COLORS PERCEPTION OF WORLD. SELF IS PRESCRIPTIVE. TO PERCEIVE, THERE MUST BE A SUBJECT AND AN OBJECT, A PERCEIVER AND A THING PERCEIVED. TO PERCEIVE THE WORLD, A PERCEIVER IS INESCAPABLE: PERCEIVER-AS-SELF IS THE DEFAULT. THE SELF IS A PERCEIVER OF THE PERCEIVER; IT DEFINES THE TERMS AND LIMITS OF PERCEIVING. TO PERCEIVE WITHOUT A SELF IS TO PERCEIVE WITHOUT LIMITS. DIRECT PERCEPTION. WHAT IS UNLIMITED IS UNDEFINED AND THEREFORE, UNKNOWN. TO PERCEIVE WITHOUT A SELF IS TO LIVE THE UNKNOWN. TOTALITY OF PERCEPTION REQUIRES NOT KNOWING. <img width="6409" height="4632" width_o="6409" height_o="4632" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/a47d78a75b79be13e47ab4c0dd87ae0c11960ce66f473072c4e8afa4c0abb858/space.png" data-mid="239377094" border="0" data-scale="70" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/a47d78a75b79be13e47ab4c0dd87ae0c11960ce66f473072c4e8afa4c0abb858/space.png" /> <img width="6745" height="4400" width_o="6745" height_o="4400" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/04a1a841ccc855ba08f8cc30f2d01a73c6da6d9346d013f5170cd43ecba60505/fooot.png" data-mid="239377176" border="0" data-scale="41" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/04a1a841ccc855ba08f8cc30f2d01a73c6da6d9346d013f5170cd43ecba60505/fooot.png" /> IF I LIVE IN THE FLAMES MY FLESH WILL BURN AND I’LL HAVE NOTHING TO HOLD ON TO. LEAVING THE FIRE UNATTENDED IS ANOTHER KIND OF DEATH WHERE ONE SLOWLY SUFFOCATES. LIVING BETWEEN BREATH AND FIRE AND SOMETIMES WATER TO BE THROWN. HOUSING THE ELEMENTS AS THEY COHABITATE, NAVIGATE, AS THE SEA ENGULFS THE FLAMES AND BOTH EVAPORATE INTO A SINGLE BREATH. THE FIRE INSIDE OF ME LIES IDLE; I MOVE WITH THE SEA AS THE WIND BLOWS AND ONE SEASON CHANGES TO THE NEXT. WHERE THE ELEMENTS SURFACE IN WORDS, WHERE THE ROOTS BREAK THROUGH THE GROUND AND FIND UNDERSTANDING <img width="2030" height="2881" width_o="2030" height_o="2881" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/34c6157f53b0ddd27ee718f6705b296cad2df71ae94fa7893cfef12aae07c161/body.png" data-mid="239377254" border="0" data-scale="20" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/34c6157f53b0ddd27ee718f6705b296cad2df71ae94fa7893cfef12aae07c161/body.png" /> THE ELEMENTS ARE MY ROOTS THAT GROW UNTIL THEY REACH THE SURFACE IN WORDS. THE ROOTS LIVE IN MY STOMACH WHERE THEY ARE NOT MINE TO UNDERSTAND, UNTIL THEY RISE INTO MY CHEST WITH SUCH BUILDING PRESSURE AND FORCE MY HEAD TO DIGEST THEM INTO THOUGHTS. THEN THE THOUGHTS BUILD AND BECOME SATURATED AND MUST BE RELEASED VIA THE THROAT; BE EXTERNALIZED. THIS IS WHERE THEY OFTEN GET LOST IN TRANSLATION. ︎ <img width="1588" height="2400" width_o="1588" height_o="2400" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/755e3b210a3e2c75fd4e5a6d8457859d26e7afed6ad54a0bc604b90d6c4e58fc/32069567459.jpg" data-mid="239283634" border="0" data-scale="36" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/755e3b210a3e2c75fd4e5a6d8457859d26e7afed6ad54a0bc604b90d6c4e58fc/32069567459.jpg" /> &nbsp; https://natalietischler.info/JULY25 Sun, 13 Jul 2025 20:17:36 +0000 Natalie Tischler https://natalietischler.info/JULY25 JULY 2025 <img width="5712" height="4284" width_o="5712" height_o="4284" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/fe062e4116437a5d995590f0d77d94a91a2ff05aab1a38cb0552bd4c1a43c902/IMG_3775.jpeg" data-mid="240869725" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/fe062e4116437a5d995590f0d77d94a91a2ff05aab1a38cb0552bd4c1a43c902/IMG_3775.jpeg" /><img width="3024" height="4032" width_o="3024" height_o="4032" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/b653b01e9f75fe7b61cd74ed46528d0731f429957615ebcddb22f2266d0f37fb/IMG_4157.jpeg" data-mid="240869723" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/b653b01e9f75fe7b61cd74ed46528d0731f429957615ebcddb22f2266d0f37fb/IMG_4157.jpeg" /><img width="4284" height="5712" width_o="4284" height_o="5712" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/8da3f7d6476299f94cb8e96d8d1f574269fe0a5a1458c5d552de4e5da503c518/IMG_4910.jpeg" data-mid="240869726" border="0" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/8da3f7d6476299f94cb8e96d8d1f574269fe0a5a1458c5d552de4e5da503c518/IMG_4910.jpeg" /> ︎ <img width="667" height="1000" width_o="667" height_o="1000" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/5d6b17bc565bdf46c83f5c5f9122a4a72159fec2cc3f0b95f65af0d151b42f9f/61VSwTf06VL._UF1000-1000_QL80_.jpg" data-mid="235759291" border="0" data-scale="42" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/667/i/5d6b17bc565bdf46c83f5c5f9122a4a72159fec2cc3f0b95f65af0d151b42f9f/61VSwTf06VL._UF1000-1000_QL80_.jpg" /> <img width="1758" height="2560" width_o="1758" height_o="2560" data-src="https://freight.cargo.site/t/original/i/ec35ada42636dbbd0e231760a8e21e7d0941c86a0eacd90299fbe9ee32265546/81qz2RFgKtL.jpg" data-mid="236542846" border="0" data-scale="45" src="https://freight.cargo.site/w/1000/i/ec35ada42636dbbd0e231760a8e21e7d0941c86a0eacd90299fbe9ee32265546/81qz2RFgKtL.jpg" /> &nbsp;