DECEMBER 2024
THAT WE HAVE NO SERVICE OR VALUE, THEN WE ARE JUST BUT PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT FOOLS BECAUSE THE BIBLE SAYS THE FOOL SAYS THERE IS NO GOD. PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT FOOLS, UNDERSTAND THAT THERE IS A GOD. THEY UNDERSTAND THEY WERE MADE WITH THE PURPOSE. THEY UNDERSTAND THAT THEY ARE NOT ACCENTS AND THAT THERE IS AN INTELLIGENT DESIGNER AND THEY HAVE AN INTELLIGENT CREATOR. THE COW KNOWS ITS OWNER AND THE DONKEY KNOWS HIS MASTERS’ GRIP.
BUT WE AS INTELLIGENT HUMAN BEINGS LIVING IN THE 21ST CENTURY SEEM AS IF WE'RE DUMBER THAN JUST COWS ARE. GOD SAYS AH, SIMPLE NATION, OF PEOPLE LADEN WITH SINS IN THE ALLSPRING OF EVILDOERS. IS THIS NOT TRUE?
DON'T WE ALL DECIDE TO DO EVIL DAY BY DAY RATHER THAN CHOOSING TO LIVE FOR GOOD?
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ONE MORNING A FEW DAYS AGO. I NOTICED SOMEONE HAD LEFT A WHITE NIGHTSTAND OUTSIDE OF AN APARTMENT BUILDING SITTING ON THE SIDEWALK. NEXT TO THE NIGHTSTAND WAS A PAIR OF SNEAKERS.
I TOOK MY WALK AND UPON RETURN I KNEW WHAT I NEEDED TO DO. THE NIGHTSTAND AND THE SNEAKERS WERE ALONE, THOUGH THEY WERE NEXT TO EACH OTHER, AND WITHOUT THINKING OR REASON, I APPROACHED THE NIGHTSTAND, BENT IT BACK ON ITS TWO HIND LEGS, PUT ONE SNEAKER UNDER EACH OF ITS FRONT LEGS, SET THE NIGHT STAND DOWN, AND THEY BECAME ONE.
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I SAID, PUT A SMILE ON IT RIGHT. YES, I DID. AT 61, AIN'T NOBODY DOING THAT.
MIKE WAS 50 WHEN HE LEFT. MIKE IS LIKE, YO, MAN, YO MAN. YOU GOING TO YOUR PARTY TONIGHT?
YEAH, YOU SHOULD. WHY NOT? THEY GONNA BE PULLING ON YOUR LEG LIKE A RUNAWAY SLIP.
NO, SHE'S WITH ME. NO, SHE'S WITH ME… OH, TOUCH OFF THESE SPIRITS, SPREAD LOVE LIKE BUTTER ON TOAST.
I CAN'T HELP IT. I'M A SCORPIO BABY. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO ACT.
HUH? IT'S GOTTA BE ALL STUCK, RIGHT? LIKE STUPID, POPPED ON DUMB.
I DON'T KNOW IF YOU' GONNA LAUGH RIGHT. WOULD YOU BELIEVE I’M 60 GOT 4 GROWN CHILDREN? SEVEN GRANDCHILDREN, 81 YEAR OLD MOTHER WAITING FOR ME TO GIVE HER THE KEYS TO A NEW LIFE, IT'S CALLED A HOUSE.
THESE GUYS ARE BUYING $50 TO $60,000 AND THEIR MOTHER ABOUT MY WELFARE IN THE PROJECTS. I CAN'T FIGURE THAT OUT. I CAN'T FIGURE THAT.
I WOULD BUY A $5000 RIDE AND SAY, MOM, WHAT YOU WANT? LOOK, WHATEVER. YOU KNOW WHAT SHE SAID, PAUL, YOU AIN'T FORGET WHAT YOU CAME FROM.
WHAT? ANYONE? THEY AREN'T MAD AT ME BECAUSE MY MOM WAS STILL AROUND.
YOU SHOULD BE SAYING, GOD BLESS YOU. I’M NOT IN CHARGE OF THAT, GOD BLESS YOU
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BE QUIET. YOU KNOW MOST OF THE DIFFICULTIES THAT HUMAN BEINGS FACE ARE NOT FROM TALKING. USELESS THOUGHTS, VEIN THOUGHTS, NOT ONLY THAT, SOMETIMES AN AGGRESSIVE BAD THOUGHT, FILTHY THOUGHTS. YES, YOU COULD GET LOST FOR THE LAST COUPLE OF THESE NIGHTS, THEREFORE, WE CAN ALL WAIT
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THREE DAYS AGO, I WATCHED A MOVIE. AND I REMEMBER ONE LINE FROM THE MOVIE. TWO LIMOUSINES CRASH INTO ONE ANOTHER, AND THE DRIVER SAYS TO THE OTHER, ECTOPLASM ON WHEELS. THIS IS THE ONLY LINE I REMEMBER FROM THE MOVIE.
TWO DAYS LATER, WHICH WAS ONE DAY AGO, I WAS WALKING IN THE PARK, AND THE NIGHT BEFORE I DIDN'T SLEEP VERY WELL. I WAS MULLING OVER WHAT I HAD THOUGHT ABOUT IN MY DELUSION, AS I CAME TO A MOMENT OF LUCIDITY. I MIXED UP A TIME AND A DATE, AND THE FIRST THING THAT CAME TO MIND WAS NEURON.
I CALLED MYSELF A NEURON, AND I STARTED LAUGHING OUT LOUD TO MYSELF AND THOUGHT THAT ECTOPLASM PLUS NEURON WAS A VERY FUNNY COMBINATION.
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LOVE ALL LOVE 15 LOVE 30 15.30.30 ALL 30.40 GAME POINT DEUCE ADD IN GAME POINT. WHAT'S THE POINT OF THE GAME? WHAT IS THE POINT OF THE GAME? THERE'S AS MUCH A POINT TO THE GAME AS THERE IS TO ANYTHING, EVEN ASKING WHAT THE POINT OF THE GAME IS SELF IS. AND IF EVERYTHING HAS A POINT, THEN EVERYTHING IS FIXED. AND WHEN EVERYTHING IS FIXED, EVERYTHING IS FINISHED. AND WHEN THINGS ARE FINISHED, THERE'S NO ROOM FOR DAYDREAMING. AND A LIFE WITHOUT DAYDREAMING IS FINISHED.
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AND I'M WALKING AGAIN. AND I JUST SAW A DOG CAGE, FOR A LARGE DOG, PROPPED UP AGAINST A TREE FOR TAKING. AND THE FIRST THING I THOUGHT WAS THAT I WOULD LIVE IN THE DOG CAGE FOR A LITTLE BIT. I THINK LIVING IN A CAGE MAY BE EASIER THAN LIVING IN A BODY AND I'D LIKE TO FIND OUT FOR MY SELF.
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I WENT TO THE THEATER WITH F AND I SHOWED HIM A PICTURE OF WHAT THE THEATER USED TO LOOK LIKE. IT LOOKED LIKE THE FAÇADE OF AN ALDO ROSSI BUILDING WHITE WITH CUBES CUT OUT OF IT FOR WINDOWS WHICH WEREN'T WINDOWS BUT NEGATIVE SPACE AND F WAS TELLING ME THAT HE WANTED TO PUT CURTAINS ON ALL OF THE EMPTY SPACES AND HE HAD IDEAS FOR TWELVE COLORS OF NEONS THAT THE SPACES WOULD THEN REFLECT. WE SAT DOWN IN ONE SPOT TO WATCH A MOVIE IN THE THEATER, WHICH WAS NOT AS MODERN AS THE PHOTO, BUT HAD BEEN MODERNIZED OR RENOVATED TO BE A VERY OLD THEATER.
WE SAT IN ONE PLACE, BUT I DIDN'T WANT MY NECK TO HURT BECAUSE THE SCREEN WAS TO THE RIGHT, SO MOVED TO THE RIGHT, BUT THEN THE SCREEN WAS TO THE LEFT, BUT I DECIDED THAT IT WAS OKAY AND WE STAYED. THEN I WENT HOME AND I HAD A LOT OF MEMENTOS. FROM MY GRANDFATHER. THERE WAS A PILE OF PAPERS AND ON TOP OF IT WAS A SMALL GOLDEN THING.
IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN A GUARDIAN ANGEL. BUT I SAT IN THE CHAIR THAT'S IN MY ROOM THE TIMEOUT CHAIR, WHICH IS MY MOTHER'S MOTHER'S AND MY MOTHER'S MOTHER'S THE ONE WHO GAVE ME, THE GUARDIAN ANGEL, AND I WANTED TO LIVE IN THAT MOMENT AND CRY AND REMEMBER THEM. THERE WAS ANOTHER DREAM IN WHICH I WAS MENACING AN ESTABLISHMENT. AND I WAS IN A VERY TRITE BATTLE WITH SOMEONE IN AUTHORITY WHO WAS SITTING BEHIND A DESK AND I WAS TRYING TO FIND WAYS TO MESS THINGS UP
AND EVERY TIME I DREAM OF THIS PLACE IN THE PAST MONTH, IT ALWAYS LOOKS THE SAME, BUT IT DOESN'T LOOK THE SAME.
IT FEELS THE SAME AND THEREFORE HAS THE SAME LOOK. AND WE'RE WALKING, WE GO TO DINNER. AND WE WALK DOWN THE FEELING OF THE SAME PATH THAT I'VE DREAMT BEFORE AND OF COURSE SHE SEES ME AND OF COURSE WE SOMEHOW END UP IN HER APARTMENT BECAUSE I CAN'T STOP LOOKING AND THEN I'M EMBARRASSED. BECAUSE I HAD ALREADY TOLD HER I DON'T EVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN. PLEASE DON'T REACH OUT.
AND THEN I'M THERE. AND I'M CONFUSED. I FEEL LIKE A SIREN. I DON'T KNOW HOW I ENDED UP THERE.
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I HAVE A LOT OF DREAMS ABOUT PLANES. I GUESS I WOULD CALL IT A REOCCURRING DREAM. THEY’RE ALL DIFFERENT, BUT THEY ALL GO THROUGH THE SAME MOTIONS.
IT'S EITHER A VERY TINY PLANE OR A PLANE THE SIZE OF THE FLOOR OF A BUILDING. AND THERE'S ALWAYS A PART IN WHICH I GET ON THE PLANE AND I'M FIGURING OUT WHERE I'M SITTING AND IT'S VERY UNEVENTFUL, BUT THAT PART IS ALWAYS THE PRESENT. AND THE MOST CONSISTENT PART OF ALL THE DREAMS ABOUT PLANES THAT ARE SIMILAR IS THAT WHEN THE PLANE TAKES OFF, IT'S NOT LIKE A NORMAL TAKEOFF BECAUSE FOR THE FIRST FIVE MINUTES, IT'S ALWAYS FLYING THROUGH A LANDSCAPE OF SORTS. VERY LOW TO THE GROUND IN A WAY IN WHICH YOU DON'T KNOW IF IT'S GOING TO HIT EVERYTHING AROUND IT OR IF IT'S GOING TO CRASH OR ONE TIME I DO REMEMBER I HAD TO DREAM THAT WE DID CRASH, BUT WE WERE SO LOW TO THE GROUND THAT I THINK WE JUST LANDED IN WATER.
BUT IN THE DREAM, THE PLANES ARE ALWAYS IN THIS CASE, VERY BIG. AND LAST NIGHT'S DREAM WAS VERY DENSE AND MOUNTAINOUS CITY, WHICH THE PLANE I WAS ON WAS TAKING OFF INTO, I THINK A VERY LONG FLIGHT, BUT I REMEMBER GETTING ON THE PLANE AND IT WAS MASSIVE. AND THE PLANE, THE SURROUNDINGS ARE VERY MOUNTAINOUS WITH SOME BUILDINGS. AND IN ALL OF THESE DREAMS, AT FIRST, IT'S MY FIRST PERSON POINT OF VIEW WHEN I'M GETTING ON THE PLANE AND I'M FINDING MY SEAT.
AND THEN AS SOON AS WE TAKE OFF, I HAVE A BIRD'S I VIEW WHERE I'M ABOVE THE PLANE. AND I'M WATCHING IT ADVENTURE VERY CHAOTICALLY GO THROUGH THESE TERRAINS AND WONDERING IF IT'S GOING TO CRASH, BUT WITH SOME DETACHMENT BECAUSE I'M NOT ON THE PLANE ANY MORE, EVEN THOUGH I AM.
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AND LIKE HER BLACK LEATHER PANTS LIKE ALL HER HAIR. AND JUST JUST SMALL LIKE, IT'S ASS IS UP, YOU KNOW YEAH.
AND BUT LIKE IT WASN'T THAT, BUT LIKE YOU SAID LIKE WHO KNOWS THAT OH, LIKE?. I'M JUST LIKE CRUSHINGLES AND AT TIME, AND IT WAS LIKE OUT, LIKE IT WAS A BIG GROUP OF US, WHATEVER. AND NO, BUT WHAT THE REASON WHY I WAS THOUGHT IT IS LIKE SO UNNOTEABLE IT WAS ALL SO DARK THAT WE WERE ALTERED LIKE, NO ONE I WOULD TEND TIMES WERE NOT LIKE GIVE US A SHIT, BUT. IT WAS LIKE LIKE USE THAT ALL NIGHT. TO HER?
YEAH. NO, WELL, SHOULD WE ALL NOTICE IT LIKE, AS THE GIRL, SHE WAS LIKE, WAIT. I MEAN WE WERE LIKE, WAIT. YEAH, YOU. SO THEN, BUT THEN I LIKE START DYING, CAUSE I'M DYING I JUST WEIRD, JUST LIKE, SHE IS LIKE, OH MY GOD, LIKE, THINGS IT'S LIKE THIS MASSIVE HOLE.. AND THEN LIKE AFTER LIKE THEM LIKE, I CAUSE I WAS ALSO LIKE, I MADE SOME AND I WAS WAS HIGH.. AND I, LIKE WALKING AND I LIKE COULDN'T STOP LAUGHING OF THE MY GOD.
AND HE TOLD HER WHY. NO, I KNOW IT WASVIOUS BECAUSE THEY WERE ALL WALKING ME. AGAIN, THEY'RE LIVING WALKING AND I JUST BE LIKE OH, I JUST WISH SHE COULD HAVE SEEN HOW FUNNY IT WAS BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE NO ONE FUCKING WAS LOOKING AND THEN IT SHE WAS LIKE OH MY GOD IN THE SARAH'S BEING LIKE IT'S OKAY., MY GOD. I WAS TO ME THE ONE I FIND FUNNY TO LIKE, THEIR SITUATION WE'LL JUST LIKE, YEAH, YEAH.
IT'S WHAT YOU. YOU KNOW. I WAS ME LAST NIGHT.
IT WAS JUST A SITUATIONAL. COULDN'T HIT ANYONE. OH MY THAT WOULD BE GREAT. WELL, I LIKE THIS.
I KIND OF LIKE, MIGHT WANNA INCLUDE THIS ON LIKE A LIKE MY CLOSE LIKE A LIVE VIDEO OR SOMETHING. LET ME SEE.. BUT LIKE AT THE END.
YES, BUT DIFFERENT ONES.. I WAS LIKE STARING. NO, YOU NEEDED A MINUTE., YOU, LIKE, YOU DON'T LIKE HIM.